Always have I felt alone like I did not quite fit in
But I struggled and strived even when the world around me seemed dark and dim
Always I have I felt empty like part of me was missing
Like the home I knew I was destined for my spirit has never given in
The perfect balance to finally be complete
A connection above all else to sweep you off your feet
A burning desire to hold you close to me
Along with the satisfaction that we were always meant to be
The search goes on I will never stop till I am done
But at least I know within my soul that you exist and one day we will be one
This loving connection and in my heart you will always remain
To hold you through the good times but also be there to kiss away your pain
In our home together we will simply shut out the obscene
For the love that we shall share shall be decent pure and clean

Closure
                       John R Pettigrew
                    Owner of JRPTAROT
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                           JRPTAROT
        FAULDHOUSE INDOOR MARKET
                 1 BLACKFAULDS DRIVE
                       FAULDHOUSE
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So many people with so many questions
Not realising that each and every experience is just another lesson
You actually think that any answer gave
Will make it any easier in dealing with the pain
This seeking closure will stop you from moving on
Brushing the things coming up as just a feeling
But the simple fact is that it always leaves you reeling
Letting fear and resentment live rent free in your mind
Giving some narcissist continue to emotionally rob you blind
To deal with your past is to begin to let go
Looking within and letting the light within you flow
Stop looking outwith for the answers is key in this lesson
As every experience handled correctly could be todays blessing
When you let the anger in your tolerance will begin to wear thin
No more second guessing,the answers you seek lay within so clear your mind and let the abundant light of love within
When you look within you will gain deeper insight
To shed pride and ego
And bask in the glory of your wondrous light

Every child is an artist u till he or she is not
The greatest part of our inner beings tends to be forgot
To connect with the child,our innocence,unconditional love
Was the gift from our higher self who resides in the stars above
From Gaia to the stars
Your hopes and dreams may seem lost and forgotten
And all is falling apart
Grab on to that faint glimmer of hope
And illuminate the dark
So forget hoping
And be knowing
That your dreams and abundant blessings and soon you will learn
It's not a matter of if but always a matter of when

I am a loving product of light
I am the star shining bright
I am remarkable I am unique
I am the intention of all you can be
I am the rain that allows life to grow
I am the ocean that runs deep and keeps the earth spinning in the moonlit glow
I am the stars that illuminate the night
I am the intuition that gives second sight
I am the sun that will light up the day
I am the star constellation that will allow you to navigate your way
When the sun goes down and the light of day fades
I was created in the image of divine source light
I entered through the silver gate to live as man
Knowing at that time what was my plan
The path I had chosen was to be broken to awaken
Heading for the home I know I belong
Knowing I have to be brave and bold
Seeking out that gate of gold
It is written in the stars and this soul originated in Erra
Here to try and help bring the world together
Wether rain or hail,day or night
I forever am
Universal Loving Light

John R Pettigrew
31/10/2016
Owner of
JrpTarot
Fauldhouse Indoor Market
1 Blackfaulds Drive
Fauldhouse
West Lothian
Scotland
United Kingdom
EH47 9AT
Facebook.com/JrpTarot

I am homesick for a place I have never been
Where my spirit is high and my soul is clean
Away from the apathy and the resentment that I can only describe as obscene
I look to within as no outer energy can cleanse my aura
Mother Earth replenishes me and helps secure me
But keeps my crown open to receive his power
Living with hope I once couldn't cope
On my knees my soul had broke
I was lifted,guided and behold
He lead me to a word that saved my soul
The word is namaste the soul is Devine
giving me a new look on reality and helping my light shine
But I allow others to shine the light on me from time to time
I try to be free from fear resentment and live for now
For now I have been blessed with light and love
Love and light to all of you

So we live In a society that takes wonderful ***** of energy,open minded wonders of powerful source light,and teach them to live In a society that takes wonderful ***** of energy,open minded wonders of powerful source light,and teach them to be subservient obedient fearful and judgemental,we were not born into pride and ego,force fed negativity and apathy,this is why I am just going to say this,mass brainwashing to keep us dumb,free thinking is frowned upon,but one thing they can never take is hope,we were born to break the chains and free ourselves and others around us,positivity lifts and negativity corrupts,so forgive yourself and those around you,anger and fear is what these lower vibrational beings want

If your environment is negative remove yourself,and strive to be positive,your spiritual growth depends on it,we are here to help not judge,calling all caring empathetic souls to come together,it is now time for us to levitate the negative,instead of waiting around for a positive change be that change today

Calling all LightWorkers,indigo children and starseeds let's make sure things like equilibrium and 1984 simply do not happen,peacefully and lovingly, Martin Luther King and John Lennon had a dream,and so do I,but this dream is my reality ❤️❤️❤️ o be subservient obedient fearful and judgemental,we were not born into pride and ego,force fed negativity and apathy,this is why I am just going to say this,mass brainwashing to keep us dumb,free thinking is frowned upon,but one thing they can never take is hope,we were born to break the chains and free ourselves and others around us,positivity lifts and negativity corrupts,so forgive yourself and those around you,anger and fear is what these lower vibrational brings want

If your environment is negative remove yourself,and strive to be positive,your spiritual growth depends on it,we are here to help not judge,calling all caring empathetic souls to come together,it is now time for us to levitate the negative,instead of waiting around for a positive change be that change today

Was on my knees I abandoned all hope
Spiralling down from the third was at the end of my rope
Yet I trudging on through out the mire
Struggling yet I wasn't even at the bit of the fire
Down from the second I was dragged down to the first
Misery depression and suicidal thoughts
But somehow I realised this feeling could not get any worse
Then I accepted within myself that things were not with the blame of others
Though it was dark and scary I clawed and scratched for the faintest glimmer of hope
That was enough to see the faintest glimmer of light
Oddly enough giving me second sight
I turned the headlights within and looked at what I had been avoiding
The truth is it was me the lessons I had to learn,but all the while free will will determine
The lessons I had to learn
To become awoken I first had to be broken
Back to the second I looked upon forgiving and forgetting
Back up to the third but  no longer looking for anyone to blame,still was hurting but my outlook was not the same

I am in awe of your ability to adapt
Traded meat for bamboo to stay aliv
I really hope that your beautiful species is not failing fast
I pray the bamboo will grow aplenty
And you remain happy and free
Whatever happens I am always in awe of thee ❤️

On my knee's pulling out my hair
All that around me were nothing but misery and despair
Suicidal thoughts were running through my mind
My heart was shattered but every one around my seemed to remain bind
Blind to the fact I happily would take my on life
Crying myself to sleep almost every-night
Because I would just hide behind a smile and say I was fine
The misery turned to anger,the anger turned to rage
Emotionally it felt like I was trapped in a cage
Fear,paranoia and apathy
A far cry from the child that I was
The child was long gone and I felt nothing but loss
Grieving for things I had never even known
Abandoned all hope
And trudging a long a dark and lonely path
Yet I seen something a faint light in the distance so I struggled and I clawed and I pick myself up
But something has changed
I stopped looking outward looking for someone to blame
And I realised soon
The light wasn't far away
It come from within me
I had to become broken to become awoken
The path of enlightened was always within me
Had lessons I had to learn for me to fully see
The truth was never lost to me I know that now
Just had to look at my self and the world with a different perception
To fully appreciate to truly value the beauty of this lesson
The empty pit in my belly was no longer there
Spirit was always around me but this was now my time to be come aware
My soul had to become broken to gain deeper insight
To back in the love and glory of this empathetic light

You pollute the air I breathe
Acting in my best interest you would want me to believe
You do nothing but divide and strategise
You ******* of war I completely despise
You declare war on terror and sell your enemy arms
Am I the only one who hears the ringing of alarms ?
The bells are ringing loud and clear
The people are asleep, they are but blind little sheep
Blind little sheep who are blissfully unaware that they are destined for the slaughter
You ask them to fight for your phoney ******* causes
You count your profits as families grieve their losses
But the light is shining bright
The people are awakening
Your psychopathic ways are coming to an end
Fake news to leave the masses in fear
When truth be told you fear us
For the 5th dimension is calling on us

On the surface I look happy and glad
Truth be told you cannot see my scars
This world is an ocean, as I look upon with a frown
Mentally I feel like I am due to drown
Overthinking it all surely I am due to sink
I have had my ******* fill and I am really on the brink
But **** that I am gonna have to swim and fight
Just to keep my head above the water
All that stand in my way I will have to slaughter
I am swimming against the tide
All that is keeping me going is my heart filled with pride
All along you thought I was trying to prove you wrong
You are all irrelevant but only for a line in my song
The only reason I am ready to fight
Is to prove to the world that I was always ******* right

Those around you in government convinced they act in your favour
And some with masks running around acting like they are your saviour
But truth be told they are one in the same
Convincing everyone that you should be looking for someone to blame
They promote indifference,separation,hatred and allegation
Truth be told they are one in the same
Promoting chaos,fear,panic and blame
Some say they do it in a religious name
The others say do not forgive or forget
The three Ls is how I must live my life
I have to remove all negative things and as such remove mental strife
Live,Love,Liberate offer a hand to the broken
It's about time now that the world is awoken
All lives matter we should be treated equal
Look not outward at the world
But to the child within us all and to the higher self
And let's all vibrate higher
For the true abundant loving wealth

Out of the ashes of rock bottom
Behold a Mighty bird that was long since forgotten
Rose from the earth from the element of fire
And lifted him self throughout the mire
What once was though of as dead
Has surely risen
All it took was a ball of desire
To ignite the fire within to lift him higher
The power of the Phoenix resides from within us all
So hold your head high and keep walking tall