Title          : My Life With
                     Monster Pain
Poet          : Phyll
Genre       : Life/Pain/sorrow
Year          : 2018
P/SwNO. : 116

( Content; this piece is based on my own true story and applies to our day to day life experiences.Anyone who reads this might find it weird and some actions i did to be stupid but i had no choice.Life is full of pain and when we find ourselves in this situation tend to shy off from our on demons instead of facing them.Personally pain pushed me to the walls twice i attempted to commit suicide with no success but just added more pain on myself.That's when i realised that,no matter how difficult life is and how much pain you endure DON'T give in to those crazy ideas that run through your mind but instead get positive and helpful idea.)

MY LIFE WITH MONSTER PAIN-By Phyll

Life is full of unexpected things,
Luckily,
you can be friends with your enemies;

Unfortunately,
your own life turn to be your enemies.

See,
life is full of surprises.

Funny it may seems, and at the same time,
It will hurt you truly with a monster called Pain.

In my life I have lost big opportunities,not once nor twice but uncountable times.

I had even forgotten how to smile,
how to see a bit further, beyond this misery.

I had also forgotten how to be happy,
how to trust anyone, give them power over me.

I had even forgotten how to be me,
I buried everything deep inside, just to hide it from others.


You taught me how to smile again,
to laugh without reason, to cry from the joy.

Dear Pain,
Thank you for revealing my error again,
showing that path of tears lie in sorrow, not in joy.

Thank you for taking it all away,
making me to hide myself again, to trust no one.

Thank you for telling I am nothing,
pointing my place, to be an outcast in life by my own choice.

And now
I'm making love
Not with a fake human being
But with a brand new razor blade.

Love me,
my razor blade.

Peel my skin,
make me scream.

Sink so deep,
make me weep.

Cut my flesh,
make me bleed.

Take my life,
set me free.

Conversing to myself like a mad man,
Not even 'like' but i had gone insane.

With nice little twist,
I slit my wrist...

Not waiting for life to ****,
rather my own blood I spill.

It's my own choice, I have no fears,
only pain, in eyes some unshed tears.

On the floor, blood making stains,
slowly releasing me from my pains.

****** stains, stains like in my soul,
caused by all the pain, this life Is so full foul...

Vision finally fading away, soon it's all done,
staring darkness, oh so black, soon it's all gone.

Soon I'm released, free from this pain,
suffering and life, it was all just in vain.

Thought,how funny blood makes difference between life and death,
farewell life, so painful, so useless, gonna take my last breath;I told myself.

The pain i felt left many queries unanswered but rather more questions continued acquired.

Why should I listen to my heart,
When It brings nothing but pain.
Why should I fall apart,
When Everytime is the same.

Why should I follow a fake a dream
knowing it will bring nothing but more scream
Why should I ... ?
When I ...

Do you feel me ???

Why should I wait all day?
I feel but I cannot speak it out,
Why do I feel this week weak?

You Moster Do you really feel me?

Why should I go through this agony?
Why can't I just follow my destiny?
Why can't I just let of life?
Maybe because ...
Maybe ... Maybe.

Dear Pain,I do feel You,
But have you ever felt me?

No doubt that;

The pain is in me,
The pain will not leave me.
The pain is all i feel in me,
It's now apart of me.

I just want to;

Cut out my heart,
Cut out my emotions.
Cut out you monster pain!

Only in darkness do i find peace,
Only in darkness can i escape.
Only if this darkness could stay,
But unluckily it wouldn't obey.

I just want to;

Cut out my heart,
Cut out my emotions.
Cut out you monster pain!

But this only added more pain,
I guess they were right;
When they said 'No Pain No Gain'.
The pain i felt made me gain more scars,lesson and experiences never to be forgotten in my entire life.

No doubt that,
Life is full of unexpected things,

Luckily,
you can be friends with your enemies;

Unfortunately,
your own life turns to be your enemies.

See,
life is full of surprises.

Funny it may seems, and at the same time,
It will hurt you truly with monster Pain.

ALL RIGHTS RESERVED
COPYRIGHT BY PHYLL
*(C)2018.

Un beso no es solo un beso
Un beso no es solo un roce
de dos labios, de dos caras.

Un beso es un pórtico a un mundo de duendes.
Es transitar entre saliva aguas celestes.
Es atascar la puerta al existencialismo al cerrar los ojos.
Por eso cerramos los ojos al besar,
porque, es una entrega amena.
Un beso es poder entregarte completamente.
Desafiando la duda impertinente.
Retando el tiempo entre suspiros.
Es hablarle al corazón atreves de fluidos.
Es exponer la tibieza  de tu esencia a quien tiene el privilegio de peregrinar en tus ríos.
Espacios donde habita la esencia más pura de tu ser, tu espíritu.
Lo que has protegido,
Lo que has venerado,
Lo que has soportado.
Es palpar el paraíso, entender la creación,
lo que Dios vislumbro cuando nos creó.
Por eso, se avisa sobre el que besa y sus ojos no cierras,
Y si tú lo percibiste estabas ausente en esa entrega.

No, un beso no es algo ****** y pedestre.
No es relegarlo por doquier sin discreción alguna.
No es rasparte una borrachera en la lengua de cualquiera.
No. Un beso es un compromiso,
Algunos besan para traicionar como Judas lo hizo con Jesucristo.
Otros besos sellan el amor que una madre tiene por sus hijos.
Otros besos enlazan por siempre a desconocidos destinados desde el principio.

Un beso es un lazo bendito,
Es una estrofa, una prosa, es rimar en la poesía de una boca.

Y aunque sedienta este mi boca,
por el roce de unos labios,
Yo sigo esperando el beso……………………………… de mi eterno amado.
Pues, desde hace mucho tiempo, mis labios entendieron
……………………………………………………..que al él están destinados.


LeydisProse
6/29/2017
https://www.facebook.com/LeydisProse/
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A kiss is not just a kiss
Kiss is not only a friction of two orifices or two faces.  

A kiss is a portal to a world of gnomes.
It’s to travel with saliva through celestial waters.
It is to jam the door to Existentialism as you close your eyes.
That is the only reason why we close our eyes as we kiss,
it’s because kissing is a sweet surrender.  
It’s defying the insolence of uncertainties.
It’s challenging time between sighs of delight.
It’s to speak to the heart through fluids of passion.
It is to expose the warmth of your essence to those
who have the privilege to pilgrimage through your rivers.

Spaces inhabited by the purest essence of your being, of your spirit,  
that which you have protected,
that which you have revered,
that which you have endured.
It is feel paradise,
It’s to finally understand Creation,
what God intended and envisioned for us.  
It’s the reason why we advise against people
who kiss without closing their eyes,
and if you’re aware, that means you were absent during that surrender.

No, a kiss is not something ****** or ordinary.  
You don't have to give it away it without discretion.  
Do not sober up your binge drinking in the tongue of a stranger.

No, a kiss is a commitment!
Some kiss to betray, the way Judas did to Jesus.
Other kisses are a seal of love,
like the one a mother gives to her children.  
Other kisses forever bind strangers who have been destined to be together.

A kiss is blessed connection,
is a verse, a prose, is to rhyme in the poetry of someone’s oral cavity.

Although my mouth is thirsty and yearning for touch and a kiss,
I am waiting for a particular kiss... the kiss of my eternal beloved.  

Some time ago, my lips understood.. .
that they were destined to be kissed by him.

LeydisProse

Kiss me slow
Kiss me soft
Kiss me long

Make it last
Make it count
Make it strong

I want to feel you
I want to know the reality of kissing you
Engrave it in my soul
Save me from the pain of forgetting your lips

Kiss my cheek
Stomach
Hand
Shoulder
Neck
Kiss me

Kiss me in the moonlight
Kiss me goodnight
Kiss me on my tiptoes
Kiss me goodbye
Kiss me good morning
Kiss me by the sunset
Kiss my clothes off
Kiss me naked
Kiss me

I need your kisses
Always

I want your kisses
Always

I love your kisses
Always

Kiss me carefully, kiss me carelessly

Kiss your love into me

Kiss me* like the world depends on it.
Kiss me like your heart might break.
Kiss me like it'll start a riot.
Kiss me like the ground might shake.

Kiss me while the sky is falling.
Kiss me while the world is ending.
Kiss me while my heart starts stalling.
Kiss me while our minds are blending.

Kiss me at the peak of a mountain.
Kiss me at the ocean shore.
Kiss me at the drinking fountain.
Kiss me at the prison door.

Kiss me everywhere,
In any place,
Kiss me anywhere,
Not just my face.

Kiss me now,
Or kiss me tomorrow,
I don't care how,
It removes all sorrow.

Just kiss me here,
And kiss me forever.
I need you dear,
To kiss me however.

Kiss me when I'm happy
Kiss me when I'm mad
Kiss me when I'm hyper
Kiss me when I'm sad
Kiss me when I'm sleepy
Kiss me when I'm sick
Kiss me when you're bored because I can't get enough of your lips
Kiss me in your car
Kiss me in the shower
Kiss me when we're walking
Kiss me for a couple of hours
Kiss me during school
Kiss me during work
Kiss me when I'm scared
Kiss me when I'm a ****
Kiss me when your dreams come true
Kiss me at hello
Kiss me when your world crashes down
Kiss me when your feeling low
Kiss me because you love me
Kiss me at goodbye
Kiss me for no reason at all
Your kisses are what keeps me alive

Two men were drafted for war.
One turned to the other and said,
"I find it odd that we leave our own family
To keep each other's families safe."

The man turned to him and said,
"I'll make a deal with you.
If you fight to protect my family,
Then I will die protecting yours."