Well wishing. Fingers crossed.
Body holds still as soul stumbles upon.
Creeping inside a hollow
and empty feeling of the restless one.
Deep and heavy steps,
as feet leaps to the ground.

Ironically free yet visually stuck.
Glaring at gripped wings,
which cannot flap to go above.
Soaring and circling is all one could think of.
Caught between the bound
of metal chains suspended on a rock.

Lips once parted, now tightly shut.
Bleak were the eyes
once gleaming in lunar light
Struck by every stroke and blows of the trusted ork,
Gone were the hopes and dreams
of the misfortunate folk.

Back then I was once told,
"Go out and meticulously pick the right one, darling."
Search for inner motives that lie within,
Look at every sign conveyed by an innocent grin.

Before I once knew,
Preserving and restoring is what I should do.
All my youth and all that I have left to offer.
'Till the time comes when I have chosen one among all the other.

Honey, you should know, I've followed every order.
Chased a dream after a dream and got to know every soul.
I did what I was foretold.
And still found myself wondering, "What have I done wrong?"

I've been, as you say, nice to them all. Picked the nicest one among the four.
Treasured and held it dear for long
Thinking this is it. The real deal after all.
Yet as it appears, it's just a facade. They got me fooled, once more.

So when should I know whom to pick?
Will time be enough to uncover the masked persona we keep?
Or do chances really happen and fate has its own course?
Thinking twice of when do I get here and...

"How far should I go?"

Where must we go now? We've tried everything
Here we are...
We used to see pass through each other and now we can't even meet eyes.
We often cross paths but we don't dare say "Hi".

We've endured this awkwardness and triumphed over this pain.
The stillness of this silence, appears deafening, once again.
The things we used to profound, we are searching within ourselves.
Waiting for a sound, waiting for something to hum - we've found none.

Amidst the pauses. and sudden twist of fate. We found danger, lurking in there.
Masked with this facade we are trying to maintain.
Carrying within us a composure we have managed very well.
Bringing forth a severe gap between what was once a beautiful tale.

When will you see the loudness of this silence eating us up?
Or the price for this ignorance we are holding towards each other, love?
How can we speak if the voices in our heads are dead overpowering?
Hoping you could hear what I needed to say without uttering a thing.


**I miss you... Instead, I said nothing.

"It's hard to let go of a bittersweet love.
I wish there was a way to make it better but we just keep breaking each other...
Just when love came my way, it was nothing but misery and pain
But I know in my heart that I love you deeply that's why I chose to stay."

You can't blame me if sometimes, I wonder...
If there should be other love meant for you, by another.
If you'd prefer the touch of someone rather than mine,
If you still think of her, all this time.

As I meet your nonchalant eyes, blatantly.
As I brush my fingertips through your skin, profusely.
Combing your hair with my shaky hands and shivering arms.
Wondering if you could at least see me, for once.

Thoughts circulating about all of the things we could have been.
Burdened by the reality of what you've shared together, things we'll never be.
Struggling to compete to the ghost of your past
Just as to stop its haunting and make our love last.

Trying so hard to regain your trust, time and time again.
Pulling your arm towards me so we could be with each other again.
Making you feel all my love and all that belongs to you
Will I ever be enough, even if I am not her?

*"Answer me, will you?"