You said you'd wait.

It was a lie.

Underneath a somber grey and pallor sky

I hold my still beating heart in my hands

and yet I  still capitulate to your quaint demands

With a smile  on my face

I'm still Bereaved

with a smile on my face

I still believe  

With a smile on my face

I  still taste  bittersweet and metallic malevolence  

Some still claim hate is folly

but the only thing I  regret is love or was it lack thereof?

I still dream

and In between memories and make believe happy- endings  

I wake up drenched  in  feverish and sickly-sweet sweat.

I've been betrayed

go ahead and stick your blade in my back and twist

twist until i cease to exist

Twist until the earth runs red

with blood and regret

with tears and sweat

and i can still feel your breath upon my neck

and your words still caress my fragile disposition

but i still wake up alone

and I still wake up betrayed.  


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Shroud me in charcoal clouds
and let the frigid autumn wind caress my skin
suspend me in a womb of hidden truths
and bury me sweetly in  a hallowed and nihilistic tomb*
So why are you astonished
in this world of rot and *****
  when our child-like elations become  extinguished by adult realizations  
and innocence is *****
So Shroud me in charcoal clouds
and let the frigid autumn wind caress my skin
suspend me in a womb of hidden truths
and bury me sweetly in  a hallowed and nihilistic tomb

when fear consumes you from the inside out
and all the walls are closing in
I will be your friend
Who can you trust and where do you go,
When you feel so ******* hollow.
When you've bitten off much more than you can swallow
and you watch your dreams slither down the drain
What will keep you sane?
*So Shroud me in charcoal clouds
and let the frigid autumn wind caress my skin
suspend me in a womb of hidden truths
and bury me sweetly in  a hallowed and nihilistic tomb

Verse 1
Spewing ignorant diatribes
Willfully leading enervate lives
Yielding to your Id’s
When the bell rings you salivate
Empty vessels sole intent to propagate
    A disregard for higher consciousness
A blank countenance
      Absent minds beget absent images
Chorus
Solitude becomes an affliction
     When imprisoned by these conditions
               Revulsion felt deep inside  
    A pariah by own design
            View this ****** up world through my eyes
Verse 2
         Is this their design?
Humans by assembly-line?
               Media programmed minds?
    Creature-comforts replacing the divine?
   Eat…Mate…Sleep…Repeat…
              Nothing more…Nothing less…
        Absent minds beget absent image

Chorus
Solitude becomes an affliction
     When imprisoned by these conditions
               Revulsion felt deep inside  
    A pariah by own design
            View this ****** up world through my eyes