• • •
Oh, lonesome 4:42am
Where I sit and crave for the things I cannot aim
"I'm falling again", as what it is on play

God. . .
What must I do?

For I no longer want to stay;
That I just wanted someone to take me away
Or go somewhere far far away

Oh, God. . .
Once more,
why am I stuck in this f x c k i n g cage of hell?

Thought things will change its turns and ways
But hey, here I am all over again
Tired of these pains I feel every single day
• • •

It is still you———

while it is her... still

You are a reflection
Of friendship and love
That hurts all at once

And that maybe—
It was too good and too real
That we needed to end up this way

Oh, I hope your heart is okay...

It was a long day for me
Not drudging yet grueling
Kinda missed composing
And you were all that I am thinking

Infiltrating the energy you are giving
That, is unanticipatedly fun receiving
Unsure of what I am feeling
But certainly holding you is what I am missing

Giggles, bliss, and histories that we are exchanging
Including the blues and greys that we are enduring
It’s 2:20am and that is what I am longing
But nope, this is not a happy ending

Today, I started my day feelin’ ay-okay
Productive, yeah, but still feels a bit grey
Conceptualizing, designing & some game play
Basically what happens on my day-to-day

Oh, but, I haven’t mentioned
That before these eyes were opened
It was you that I was with
During the time when I was still asleep

Is there something you wanna say?
‘Cuz anytime you may
Like how I just stayed
After rejecting me — in my dreams & while being awake
Basically what happens on my day-to-day

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Bigo, yan ako labing-limang araw bago ka dumating
Pinaasa sa mga susunod na araw na hindi naman pala makakamit
Niloko sa hindi malamang kadahilanan kung bakit
Panay ang tanong sa isipan kung bakit ako pa ang napili
Na nananahimik at wala namang balak manakit

Sabi ko tama na't huwag nang umasa pang muli
Dahil sa henerasyon at ikot ng mundo ngayon,
Ang makatagpo ng taong kayang suklian ang pag-ibig na meron ako
Ay parang inaabot ang langit sa liit kong ito

Pero mahirap nga naman talagang pigilan [minsan] ang nararamdaman
Na kahit ilang araw pa lamang ang nagdaan
Umaga, tanghali, hapon, gabi habang naghahapunan
Ay laman ka na lagi nang aking isipan

Hep hep hep!
Sinabi nang saglit!
Masyado kang makulit
Hindi ka na bata na dapat pang paluin sa puwit!

Pero eto, seryoso na ulit. . .
Bakit ba kasi umaasa pa nang paulit-ulit?
Eh nasa harapan na nga yung sagot na wala ka naman ngang ****
Kahit sa totoo lang may konti nang sakit

Nakakatawa lang din minsan, ano?
Hindi ko lang sigurado kung yung tadhana lang o pati ako
Na alam namang mapaglaro
Pero sinasabayan yung agos kahit alam na hindi sigurado't [minsan] delikado

Risk taker nga ako, hindi ba?
Pero may kaduwagan sa aking kalooban at ayaw ko pang bumigay
Kasi hindi ko pa kayang mapalayo ka't baka magpaalam na nang tuluyan
Kaya dito na muna ako sa isang tabi,
Na muli nalang maghihintay sa iyong susunod na mensahe.
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• • •
Sabi ko hindi ako bibigay
Ngunit nauwi nanaman sa hanggang sabi lang
Anong magagawa ko?
Eh kinukulit mo isipan ko

Pero ayun na nga
Wala na akong nagawa
Hindi mapakali't hindi malaman ang gagawin
Pumikit nalang ako't sabay hinga nang malalim

Eto na,
Naisend ko na
Wala nang balikan pa
Nabasa mo na
Alam mo na

Wala ka namang kasalanan
Wala ka din namang ginawa
Hindi ko rin alam bakit humantong sa ganito
Sabi ko usap lang pero natangay ako

T a n g i n a, bakit?
Anong meron sayo?
Tignan mo pati ako nagtatanong
Kasi kahit sayo "hindi ko alam" ang sagot

Sa sandaling panahon,
Napasulat ako nang ganito
Aba, mukhang kakaiba ka nga talaga, ano?
Ano kaya talagang meron?

Baka sakaling tugmang Susi
O dala lang siguro nang mga Kathang Isip?
Pero kahit Masyado Pang Maaga,
(Salamat)

Dahil kahit sandali, napili pala ako Araw-Araw
Kahit hindi pang-Lifetime
Hiling ko lang,
Sana nga'y Pagtingin mo'y di magbago
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There's no need to please–––

If it would wholeheartedly insist.

"Uyyy, it's u"

And that's when I had a bit of a chance on you;

Sa hindi inaasahang panahon,
Landas natin ay ipinagtagpo
Dating mo'y hindi mawari kung suplado ba o masyadong seryoso
Ngunit kahit ganoo'y ako'y nagpatuloy.

Sa hindi inaakalang pagkakataon,
Mga kwentong noo'y nagmumula sa pagtatype ng mga daliring mahilig sumulat
Ngayo'y nagsisimula na sa mga pagtawag at pagbigkas ng mga bibig na makata.

Sa hindi maintindihang sitwasyon,
Matagal-tagal na hindi napapaisip at napapasulat
Ngunit dahil sayo'y biglang nanumbalik
At heto ngayon, nagsisilbi kang inspirasyon.

Sa daldal **** taglay,
Makulit at maalagang pagkatao
Na nagsilbing kanlungan sa oras nang pagiging mapag-isa,
Salamat sa pagiging kung paano ka nagpakilala.

Dahil sa oras na magtugma ang mga nararamdaman,
Kahit hindi inaasahan,
Kahit hindi akalain,
Kahit hindi maintindihan,
Sayo, ako ay sigurado.

From the moment our paths crossed,
I know it is more than what you came for
And I know it's a trap
But I just can't seem to stop

During the absence of flames
You put fire in me
And even the coldest of days
You make it hot through the nights

I know I can only hold you
With your chosen number of minutes
Yet these little times are far from what I expected
That I would like to do all these things over and over again

Your silence makes it confusing
But your pain make things worthwhile

-
(Oh, how I wish it hasn't have to be this way)

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And I wonder who's luckier —
the living hoping for his death
or the dead wishing for another breath?
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