you sit there crying because she left you
she did the same thing to me
she left me there crying, she told me she loved me and she would never leave me
but now look shes with you hurting you instead of me your crying because you wont let her go, i told you what she did to me and how much she hurt me, you know how you took her back after she said sorry and she will never do it again but look she did it again she left you probably ******* another ***, but you will take her back, and she's saying the same things  she said to me to you, she is lying to you, she wants to break you down where no one else could have you because your sad, but look get over her all, all she is  doing is hurt you and you can stop the hurt only if you let her go

Fake smiles,
Fake laughs,
Fake heart,
Fake personality,
Fake human,
Fake me,
So yeah, Fake is me.

The ticks pound in my head
like African drums.
Each tock sounds off
another second of life lost.
And another.
And another.

The silence is too loud.
The voices aren't as quiet.
They're more than murmurs in my head.
I hear them clearer than ever before.
Focused.
Intelligible.

I've done so much in life
But I've done nothing.
I'm surrounded by people
Yet completely alone.
Facades.
Fears.

Past memories resurface.
The worst of them first.
How could I have accepted it?
How could I have not stopped it?
Alcohol.
Abuse.

I've seen hatred.
The dark side of the coin.
I've seen lives fall apart
And walls crumble.
Death.
Divorce.

I'm close to ending it all.
It would only take one slice.
I've summoned up the courage.
I'm not "okay" anymore.
Red.
Running.

My mind is getting hazy,
But it's clearer than it's ever been.
My worries are draining out of me
As well as life.
Darkness.
Descending.

I'm getting cold now.
My feeling is fading away.
The ride ends here.
All I want to do is sleep.
And sleep.
*And sleep.