If you lie and I believe, just as long as I'm breathing, I'll stay.

And if you fall I'll pick you up and if I call you dont pick up I'll stay.

And if you're too moody to talk,
If I finally feel like giving up.
I'll keep in mind that I'm no better.
Its just one of those days.

But your lies were beautiful, they kept me intact.
They held me tight When I was being attacked.
And there's lots of people in this world, but you're an alien I know,
you're an angel dressed as a demon and I was the monster that needed healing.

I was a dog, alone and cold,
abused and scared of this big old world. But you were the light,
you guided me,
introducing me to prayers and anxiety.

A new day
with any luck
a good one
hah.

There are some things I want to say to you.
First off I will never ever make our child think less of you, no matter how your role in their life plays out. I will always tell them that their father is an amazing man. Ambitious, hard working, driven by his passions. I'll look at them with tears in my eyes as I rock them to sleep telling them all the reasons I love you. I will always make sure that our child doesn't feel abandoned. I understand I am a single mother. I have to rely on myself to raise this child and that's okay. Please know that while I may be some backwards farm town girl who runs around barefoot eating with my fingers I will be an amazing mother. One who will not be afraid to get messy. One who will pretend to be every super hero, cartoons character and farm animal there is. I will try my best to always make our child smile, but there will be days when I can't and I hope that when that day comes I'm strong enough to help hold some of their worries on my shoulders.
You see this child may be unplanned for however even as just a small raspberry in my stomach I refuse to ever think of this child as unwanted or unloved. My entire life revolves around what is best for my child now. That's okay.
So please just know. We will be alright. We will survive. We will always accept you into our lives.

You will be the clouds
and I will be the sky.
You will be the ocean and I will be shore. You will be the stars and I will be the moon you be the sunset and I
Will be the horizon
Whatever we are,
You and I will always collide.