you used to leave one kiss on my head.
now I could be pronounced dead &
you'd act like you care.
about the memories,
left.
like broken glass on the kitchen floor.


c.f.

You had me thinking i was the one. That i was special. I was the only girl you wanted. Then all of a sudden, i turned into nothing. I was just a girl. An old friend. You were a liar, and i had no desire to be a part of your lies.

a.m.

i dont wanna lose this feeling

but you made me to.

i'm undone,
thank god and all the ******* angels
in heaven, and fallen ones too:
i'm undone
before your endless, ecstasy-emitting body.
these ruins of the future
are a paradise
in this riveting flux; consecrated and desecrated,
made seraphic and savage
in the undulating ebb and flow of our flesh.

I keeping thinking I need more time
Time to think, time to accept, just time

Friendship never asks for interest;
It only has passion to invest a lot!

Shed no tear for the fear.
Ingnite the fire within.
  Dig the grave to hour near,
Deep route a timeglass grin.
  Now congure your error
And so fine is the beast!
  Grant it's act of terror  
Be with your final feast.

  Away with sanity.
The will is just to live,
  For liing vanity
Has only itself to give.
  The creatures of evil
Show their faces at last.
  They'll paint at your easel
A block from long past.

  They bring no quick demise.
They'll lessen self portrait.
  Scream not of 'hows' nor 'whys'.
Let your mind rush or wait.
  Senses perceive the pain,
Play you well or  just  fair,
  The reward in this game
Is a breath of more air.

  Panicked glance behind you.
Nightmares raise their dead
  Threatening to persue
Deep within your bed.
  You know fright has prevailed.
Whispers heard loud and clear,
  To tell you that you've failed.
You've lost your soul to the fear.