unbutton my fears
strip me off my doubts
i will shiver against your touch
as you wipe away my tears
as my flaws are exposed
reward me by
pulling me closer
against your body
and tell me that
you love me
as i cry out
in ecstacy
as you move your way
into my soul
look at past my boundaries
call me as you fall
deep into my misery
i will let you sing
your songs
as you calm me
from my reverie
i will let you have it all
even as i think
about the uncertainty

I try not to worry
her
So much that sometimes
I answer
I’m fine
before
Hello
when she calls
because I know to her
I’m still more bone than
skin
I’m an empty bottle of
pills
One breath away from non
existence
A blood stain she scrubbed
with her tears
I’ve already worried years
off of her life
while trying to end
my own
So when she phones to
to check on me
I’ll always be fine
no matter what is
going on in my life
and sometimes before
Hello

See me for me
See limb for limb
See part by part

See stars as burning endings
See skin as part of the wrapping
Gift wrapping--- like
Tearing the most thickest part
Imagine a house burning apart

See eye for an eye
Not tooth for a tooth
Dig deeper into the shallows
Walk opposite than your feet
Look away every time you see the street

Signs to keep away
Don't go if I say
That the prettiest parts of me
Do not convey
What the truth--

The truth will prevail
See, no, it's a no
I'm not your little girl
I don't need your pity
I don't need you to save me

Babe, tell me, babe
Soul for a soul
Heart for a heart
Would you still stay
Even if every time
We touch
We only
Fall apart?

you pushed me
through thick and thin
you held me
through fall outs and drop outs
you never let me fall
you made sure
i could make it through it all

now it's empty
i'm standing on a gurney
wishing for God to come take me
the pain is too tough believe me
i cant get through the day
without crashing

i'm trusting
i'm trying to let it all go
i know  this are His plans
i know He'll never let us go
no matter what happens
i'll always be here
waiting for the day
we can look at each other
and never have to look away again

While I'm here regretting
why I didn't kiss you more
            You ask why
yesterday's kiss isnt enough yet

And I pull all the strings
that make me want you
While you know how to
tie them back tighter

I wish I didn't want to be
part of your life
But your world keeps
trying to collide with mine

I keep trying to walk away
but baby this road
always ends up to
           y o u
And I always keep hurting myself
because I know I will never be
enough for you

The sun will set in different colors, baby
but what am I going to do
if I lose you?

I'll just keep pretending
I don't need you;
that I can live with myself
knowing the love of my life
is
y  o u

I'll just keep telling myself
that you were hard to love anyway
and that you never did care;
that all you were in love with
were the feelings
but never the me
who was always
there.

Every time you begged for love
from the wrong people;
every time you asked me why
they couldn’t love you back;

I wanted to tell you that: I am here.
I know how to love you
without looking at
your missing pieces
I’m ready to fix
the mess you’ve made
with your little misses

I wanted to tell you
how eager I am
to take your hand
and show you the way
into my heart;
blind you with so much love
you won’t ever look away
from me again
without hurting
for something
you almost had
but never did.

I wanted to tell you
that I ache to heal you badly;
that I want to make the people who hurt you
beg for your forgiveness
and soothe away the pain
of your never ending longing.


But all I have are words
and they will never be enough for you.
And despite my best efforts to try
and make you happy,
my heart is already bound
by the chains of the love
that is meant for me.