I added my breath to you
So you could survive for a while
I jumped inside your body and held you shut
Sleeping against your ribs causing you pain
But you insisted I stay
I used the blood that you created and flowed into your heart
I swam through heartaches and troubles
Tried to find a place that held no misery
Inside your veins I recognized you
But it was lifeless and dark, a place I have been within my own heart
I don’t want to stay out of contempt
I swallow every ounce of air you bleed
The taste of greed
But its times you release
I dive out of your core
You can’t feed on me anymore

Don't worry about me
I have just enough oxygen left

Unborn fingers in the womb, dipped in sap
Upon emerald shores collecting in the cracks of my heart
Painted valleys with a warriors thirst
Braided flowers waltzing with hymns
Amniotic carcass with small town blues
Kindling wood stamped with an antique sunset
Pulling my heart into the whistling shores

Smashing the bluebird to wear his color in my wounds
Feathers like fingerprints washed out to sea
Let his beak peck away my aortic
The rifle rests at my feet

Street lamps burning waiting for the morning swell
Lovers closing curtains from the moonlight gold
We pressed and folded dandelions today
Bitter lemonade secrets spoke
Pathways of gardens laced through
I hung on a thread, eating kitchen knives for dinner
As sadness wrapped me into a familiar blanket
Wandering around with button eyes
Trying to ******* own soul

I struggle to steady my body
As I trace my wife’s hands  
I have become some clumsy over these fifty years
Not the man I use to be
When we were young at heart and danced and played
I held you everyday
I would watch you sleep
Never wanted you to slip away
Through the years we became friends
Your beautiful soul that astounded  me so
We told our children stories full of our youth
Lived life to the fullest
Taught  each other  not to hurt
As I stand here today
With our  children at my side
I weep and feel as though I died
Hands are embracing me everywhere I turn
But its your hands that I want to softly feel again
Will I see you soon or is this goodbye?
Can we make love next to the moon ?
Or will I see a corpse that is nothing but bones
When I dance with you will it be dust?
Do you have eyes that can see ?
Could you imagine the flowers and the trees?
What about our children can you  see them from afar ?
Would I look through you or would  you know ?
I might as well be just  remains because nothing is the same
I will drift around and drink your dust

My sister on the sun
I miss you so
But I know that it was god's plan
I  know that your in a beautiful place
Sister of mine missing you hurts
But I will have to let go

When I was small you French  braided my hair
Watched over me held me tight
When you where beat over nothing at all
I would wait until the end
I wanted to mend your way
The sound of crying eyes
Your puppy shot because Father thought he was in the way
From then on I was alone
My heart was frigid and paralyzed
I never slept or ever spoke the same after that day

Yellow embryos famished
Shadows gnarled oak
Thickets of winter ambush my walking feet
Wooded ghosts begin to appear
Thinking of surrendering to death, So I can feel alive
Unbalanced earth swarming and sunken
Living in the corners with the voices  
Covered in patchwork and books
The dance with death is relentless

A empty place
I stand barefoot
Using my hands as a map
This earth will make me free
Limbs scratch my legs
Yet I move on
I surrender myself to this place
Take all I have
It's not enough
I know
Words  pound down like rain
Humanity is not free
I missed all those years
When I sold my soul
I embark on this journey
Trying to see the way

Delicious color through the porcelain sky
Among  sacred desires
Untamed with velvet poison
A blanket of moss
As the fertile moon is gently bright
Deep beneath when nothing is right
A world of beautiful lonely rivers
Nature is how life grows
Withers and leaves peace between
Poetry is the season of the song
When  all feels wrong

The wars of love
Stripping my skin
Leaving me useless and afraid
I found my tooth on the clean kitchen floor
I miss filling your mouth with mine
With blood on my face we made love
You sepreate my flesh, blindfolding my mind
An incision seeping scars

Beneath my throat
I try and undo my wounds
The beliefs that slipped away
Eating minutes
Nailed to a tree
Desperate and lonely
Who will I be ?

He died you hated him
He beat you ******
Mean *******
Mom gave you his compass
Always come back son
If she only knew you would never return

At the age of eight you blew out your candles
At the age of eighteen you blew out your veins
At the age of twenty eight you blew out your brains

I did not mean to hurt you
Nor was it a surprise
That I shoved you away
When you begin to love me its so much to take
With you by my side I want to stand alone
I have an inner fight
Will I be alright?
I feel like I don't belong
The world made us collide in such a place
I try and love you
I try my best
Wallowing in the corner of my heart
I would rather be abused
Then admit that I need you

What is good morning even mean
When you never sleep?

A widow's vine with wool lips and arrow teeth
A stranger to whom, I no longer  know
You once loved literature and putting words to print
Now I'm stifling unconsciously, in silence painting our home with strain

The secrets penetrated the lips of townspeople
Painted widow's weeds, now sketched with despair
Flames in the cellar, stale with wool pansies
Suppressed as weeping willows

I love that feeling when your frantic with desire
Wanting to climb into the other person to feel them alive
Often that passion does gap and divide
If only that frantic hunger did not die
I would love to always be hungry for the same meal after years of indulgence

My soul expires soon

I'm an old photograph that has no place
Black and white, no color,  no space
The world has drained
I can't stay

Lovers come to taste me
I couldn't let him go  
Naive bruises that I caused
Laying my head down to sleep
I feel my skin breaking
Could we still make love?
I questioned this inside my head
Like an wounded  bird I lay still
I wanted it to all be true
A change for me and you
Reading the newspaper over coffee
When a difference of opinion was just simply that  
You wanted me to love you
It was simple then
No control you left me safely in the nest

I'm a guest in my own mind
Swallowing spoonfuls of fire
The devil found a room for me to rent
As my fetishes landed me in court

I'm out of time
To feeble to climb
The words of others
Ring into my ears
Do not be frightened
Your at peace here

A Sun sculpted face
Gentle lights
Guide me through the night
As the ink of nature dries
Praying into the skies with earth at my side
Dust of the flowers on my finger tips
Shadows upon my cheeks
Glowing stars born before our eyes
With a kiss of hope
You can see the gardens song
Faintly on the shore
It's a gleam that not everyone can see

Without a word I fell in love
You looked at me
I forgot the past
With razors in my hands
And hate inside my heart
You gave me the reason to survive

Writers block
***** me

Silent eyelids on  galaxies of wings
Spinning meteorites entering my tears, into the white scented moon
  Pockets  full of soft kisses and kaleidoscopes strings
Weaving stones and heartaches into my muse
Spoken through poetic teeth

Living  a life that is of no use
I didn’t learn a lesson for everyone to know
I can’t  bury secrets and just pretend
I’m  a picture without the frame
Water that don’t flow
I shall be here with my pain

Antique brain and, willow trees fenced inside my mind
Wearing my conscience like a cinder block around my neck
Speaking eloquently from a smashed mouth
Wandering through life's hallway, burning out the night

It's warm and wet on my lips
I take my time to savor the flavor
I desire the most
Salty and sweet
Tonight I'm yours
Were free
Tell me what to do
I could work it for hours
With the candle light dancing against my behind
I can give it to you nice and slow
Let me begin to show you how it works
Our lips exchange an embrace
As I look into your eyes
Working it down
I'll be your sweet baby
What ever you desire is fine

He wrote plays and tears them up
Smoked to much and talked to fast
I would curl up on his chest as he spoke of old  English literature
I admired his mind and lusted for his knowledge
His skin was defined  every furrow told a tale
Deepset eyes with a whiskey tint

Linger and embrace as I bleed champagne
Slowly broken haunting this place
The desires recall the poison
We gulped the liquid *** when one night was never enough
The salt of your skin on my tongue
Sweet words that caused morning tears
I yearn waiting for your return
As the lonely wind rustles I try and wander free
Its moist beneath my hips
Between her spirit I know you have to return
I quietly follow your soul as you go out the door

My portrait so fine
Teeth made of veins and apple cores
Reeking of steel

This chemical has you skeletal on a downward spiral
This is not incurable it's repairable

Bleeding Blankets
A skeletal spectator
Splintered, ripped, fractured
What is the definition of consent?
What is the definition of countless?

Sweltering groins in the church pew heat
Dolorous gospels outcry
Lines of blackberries spread as the morning grows
Daylilie's hanging on for dear life
Men's brows wiped hastily
Silence that deafens a room
In this temple of my homestead

Tonight we make love
To the same old songs
In this bed where we are emotionally unfit
The wood stove smells of wood and pine
It's so warm inside
I feel peace when I look at you
This is the place that I know
In fact it's all I know
It’s all I got
But I wish I didn't know every corner of you
Every turn of your heart
I wish I didn't
I wish I never had

Tremulous stars on the raw moon, kissing the grief away
My absent lover ran toward the Northern lights
I begged him to stay, I will paint visions inside your head
Azure coils with bands of seafoam with orchid shine
I can inflame ,swirl and glisten
We can find the skyline and live upon the atoms
As my paint brush bristles faintly float away