When did my mouth become so quiet
When did my mind start racing
When did my eyes stop wandering?

When did my legs become so stiff
When did my soul start dimming
When did my heart stop skipping a beat?

When did I become so mindless
When did I start not to care
When did I stop believing?

Do you know that moment? In-between everything?

That very brief moment when all your troubles go away.

Everything that’s good or bad disappears.
Everyone you love or hate, you forget.

Anything that’s bothering you the slightest or the most just sinks deep into your being
Until it becomes nothing.

That moment when you can actually breathe.
You know? That.

I want that.

Don’t you?

You held a net for me
For my deepest sorrows and fears

And you let me fall freely
Unapologetically

Then you gently let me go
Leaving me in the abyss

Free falling
For eternity

My love,
You broke my heart again today.

I saw it in your eyes
It’s not hard to say.

The magic between us
It’s starting to decay.

The lies I told myself haunt me
To this very day.

Lies that I believed
While you were astray.

I’d see you moving on from our world
And yet still, I would pray.

Pray to God you would keep me in your heart
No matter what price I’d have to pay.

How did I not see this
Coming from a mile away?

You took back all your promises
All your promises to stay.

And yet my heart still finds it unbearable —
It’s not okay.

To look into your eyes
And know you’re far, far away.

Miles and oceans apart
From our first day.

To that, my love, I stand strongly and say
Thank you for breaking my heart again, today.