It starts in my chest and grows
like a parasite it eats at me
It feeds on my insecurities
It weighs me down

It runs through my veins and spreads
like a virus it breaks me down
It drains me of energy
It slows me down

Its destroying me

This may be the last sunset I see
so I'll take it in, I'll take it in

This may be the last breath that I breathe
so I'll breathe it in, I'll breathe it in

When I'm having a bad day
I want to go home
going home means
going home to you
your smile
your eyes
your laugh
your "how was your day baby?"
your warm hugs
just you
Because you are my home

I am drowning in my past
but its ok
I can save myself
I can swim to shore
but it feels like forever

I dont want to admit
that I need a hand
but I do

Waves hovering over me
and crashing into me
causing me to sink

the light starts to fade
and the surface starts to become blurry
it felt like everything stopped

please help me....

I thought that was it
until a hand reached into the water
an pulled me out

and who pulled me out was

my future

one by one
each card is dealt to you,
another chance comes your way,
seven new chances lie in your hands.

each card
is full of new hope, opportunity and desires,
you take a close look at them all
with those gleaming eyes.

to you this is nothing but a game
as you feel no shame,
you skip over other’s emotions
and reverse the connections you have made.

you proudly discard them each
one at a time
and pick up more along the way,
before leaving the others behind.

they eventually all are placed in your discard pile
until there is a singular one left,
a single card, she is all that is left,
and you contently call “uno”.

your turn approaches again,
you look down at your final card
with your gazing green eyes,
and you place her too, in the discard pile.