One step closer, to the edge of insanity, towards the uncertainy, I am walking away from the mediocrity and towards who I want to be.
I am taking each breath, in and out slowly, this air is full of people's dreams that never made it, full of passion that has been sedated and the hopes that have become outdated.
See the children who dreamt of the wildest things ended up growing up and with responsibility on one shoulder and pressure on the other and so the life they discover, is not full of the magical dreams they had once yearned for, their younger escapades now unravel and they forget the life that they had once dreamed of, their hopes now expired and cast away.
And so I seek to escape this mundane maze, this game that life seems to have created, I want to crawl through the loophole.

grief, like a thief in the night i am awakened by your presence
sweat, tingling my skin, i am left quivering within
the night air puncturing my lungs steals my breath in exchange for a sickening sense
the nightmares run on replay within my head
a gut wrenching reminder you are no longer here
then nausea seeps into my pores, beckoning me to fall apart,
grief grips my heart, finding me an interesting experiment
loss laughs in my ear, my feeble attempts at piecing myself together makes it laugh
HA, HA, HA
but i don't find it funny and i am so tired

memories flood my mind,
flashbacks of a kind,
from a time where you and i were perfect.
but these snapshots are merely photoshopped
therefore i am accusing nostalgia of being a ***** liar
nostalgia i thought you were my friend,
a hand to take, when memory lane awaited
to take me back to my past tainted with flaws
but you said no more,
you set out to sugarcoat the darkness,
i want it back, the true memories,
that were messy, that were easy to forget
please nostalgia, don't make me remember
these fake memories, you have surely created to please me
and make me ache for those perfect moments

you tried to stay lost,
but i tried to find you
you tried to run fast,
and i couldn't blame you.
you said its tiring,
when i continue to chase you,
why is my love useless
while yours is a 'virtue'.

im falling like tomorrow's never coming,
im too careless and throw around my love,
i guess i should try to see into the distance
but you've given me nothing to go on.
im trying just to live like ive seen them live,
they remain perfect but i just try to be enough,
struggling through something i'll never fit in,
but with my unique imperfections i shall rise above.

You were a delicate cactus flower, that showed the unloved cacti could have beauty
You were the singular floating lotus on a lake, encompassing the strength one must have to keep themselves above water
You were the ray of sun, through the clouds so foreboding, giving hope that warmth could be found in the future
And you were the one that covered me with love, soothed my wounds and proved that within myself I could find my own kind of beauty, strength and warmth if i looked hard enough

There is an ache, like an earthquake,
that crashes through my heart
My body shakes with the pain of love
Because we're ripped apart
I wish I could hold you, until this earthquakes ends
But I'm left here grieving you,
While you look down from heaven