Don't say I didn't love you
And don't say we couldn't try
Don't say you didn't treat me right
Because you always kept me from the lies

lights
the sky opening for them
and kissing them with colour
setting them free
and caging them in
to a canvas of
shine
lights
breathe them in, slow and thick
like smoke in the air
falling as the wind shakes them in
they're wound round my hair
and mainly neon like unending sun
most of all, in the stars
lights
so unbridled, shining how they may
flying where they so wish
the planets conspire
to catch their spirits like fireflies in a jar
how like your eyes they are
how they remind me
mainly, most of all
we're undeniably free

I remember it
all too well
her tears were there
and she was unfixable
at 2 a.m., she was
taken for granted
and she thought
how sure it was she'd be outlived
I remember her
voice cracked, raw
as she said
I can't
and I can see it now
those doe eyes filled my vision
and tears swam round her lashes
so tired of crying
I remember it
I can feel it in my bones
how the air grew hotter
between spaces when no one spoke
but most of all
I remember me
speechless and dazed
filled with sorrow
my words were nothing
against her pain
she was still screaming
when I said to her
softly as I could
don't give up on yourself
for we both know
it isn't fair to you
stay away from your razors tonight.
look me in the eyes
you are so loved, and by so many

memories may fade
but flashbacks are forever
coming back
haunting my nightmares
refusing to die.