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 Jan 2020 Empire
Slightly Lovely
I like the feeling of being held.
So if i become a hostage, i do not know if i would struggle.
 Jan 2020 Empire
N
9:44 PM
 Jan 2020 Empire
N
I am yearning with
an ache for something
sharp to caress my arms
I'm trying to resist the urges, but my arms are yearning. I don’t want to start cutting again, I don’t. I can’t study nor focus on anything else. I can feel my soul ache for the gushing blood. How do I stop this? What if I lose control?
 Dec 2019 Empire
Apro
Stay.
 Dec 2019 Empire
Apro
would you stay with me if i had to go somewhere
would you stay with me if i messed up
would you stay with me if i was sad
would you stay with me?
 Dec 2019 Empire
Bleurose
We 'sit' together
but we don't. Do we?
We're at different desks in different homes in different lives.

Miles between us and an ocean for some.

Others don't always understand how you can miss what you can't touch or just BE with.

What I'd give to watch TV on the sofa with you all for a day. When you're sad I can't hold you or bake sweet things - nor can I chase away the threats and thoughts I worry that one day you will succumb to.

(and maybe we'd never know where you went.)

I miss you all with my whole being, with you I don't feel alone but when I hang up...I snap back to the reality that I can't reach you.

My brain will toy with all these ideas on how we could meet but you still aren't free and money does not come easily to me and I reach, and reach... and I...

...just miss you.
I miss you all.
 Dec 2019 Empire
Bleurose
It didn't matter that you were miles away
I felt you step alongside me
Your advice in my veins, your strength when I slipped.

Now it's just me and the voices.
I walk faster now, sure, but,

I'd rather "have" you beside me.
We don't talk anymore, you don't trust me anymore...and that's okay.

Doesn't mean I don't miss you.
 Nov 2019 Empire
Strider
He was like *****.
When mixed, ***** will fill you with a warm, comforting sensation. The kind that invites you to be your true self without causing impermeable amounts of damage
However, when it is not mixed, it will hit you harder than you expected and suddenly your world is upside down, doing things you never expected.
It needs to be diluted, weakened.
You need to control it, or it controls you.
I wonder if I had diluted him, kept some distance instead of falling immediately, if things would be different.
But I didn't, I took him like a shot, and my throat is still burning.
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