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I hibernate like a bear, but not from winter, from the world.
pregnant with blue
learning flotation

soon to swim
the waterfall
he keeps pushing me.
telling me
to take a chance.
have an interview
with his ops,
who would love me,
by the way.

and since i’m leaving,
why not now,
especially,
that him and the company
are definitely my thing.

it’s my decision, he said.

i hate that he’s right.
i hate it so much.
and i hate him
for asking me
what’s the hold-up.

what a joke.

the hold-up.

it’s you.
i’m wasting my energy
thinking about this.

it’s you, holding me back.
it’s the thought of us
being at the same place,
in the same room
for longer
than ten seconds,
holding me back.

it’s my heart,
my mind at last,
every living cell
in my body
holding me back,
fighting fantasies,
thoughts
that carelessly run
through my head
as i play out what happens.
it’s my instinct of fear
holding me back.

i don’t want
near your fire again.
hand myself over
on a silver platter,
and say,
‘do whatever you can.
my very core is
in your hands’.

you should know better
than ask
what’s holding me back.
i’m fighting my feelings
with everything i have.

go, and get yourself burned
like i did,
when you have the chance.
this one is about still healing from someone who thinks they’ve done nothing wrong.
August 7, 2025
Do not listen to the beating of my heart;
listen , instead, to the hearts of others.
Do not feel the passion in my hands;
feel, instead, the passion in your lover's palms.
Do not absolve all my misgivings;
forgive, instead, the wrongs of all others.
Do not see the beauty in my mirror;
see it, instead, in 8,000,000,000 others.

TOD HOWARD HAWKS
We have mined our mountains,
we have fished our seas,
we have felled our forests,
we have gathered our grains,
but we have not yet embraced
the infinite energy of our souls,
which is love.

TOD HOWARD HAWKS
.
asks the one in the $9 Craigslist chair,
legs crossed like a philosopher
mid-way through a YouTube binge
on dark matter
and dopamine fasting.


He thinks it’s profound.
It’s not.
It’s a shrug in a trench coat.
A crisis dressed up in code.
An old fear wearing digital cologne.

If this is a simulation—
what the **** are we simulating?

Heartbreak?
Minimum wage despair?
The number of times I check my phone
hoping it’s her?

Is it
a stress test for gods,
a beta for consciousness,
a joke?

Because if someone coded this—
they should be fired.
Or worshipped.
Or sued.

Where’s the patch notes,
the exit key,
the server room in the sky?

Where’s the moment it glitches
and someone finally says,
“Oops, our bad—
you weren’t meant to feel
all of that.”

You talk about the veil of illusion
but you still cry in parking lots.
You still ghost your therapist.
You still love people
who don’t text back.

You bleed,
you ache,
you spiral—
whether you’re made of atoms
or ******* pixels.

Your god wears headphones.
Your sacred text is a Stack Overflow thread.
Your heaven is a loading screen.
Your hell is just
Monday.

You pray in 1080p
to a silent DevOps deity
who hasn’t pushed an update
since the Bronze Age.

This isn’t philosophy.
It’s cosplay for cowards.
It’s a way to sound deep
without touching dirt.
Without risking faith.
Without changing anything.

Because if it’s a sim,
you don’t have to care.
If it’s a sim,
you don’t have to try.

You can just sit there,
scrolling.
Wondering if the fire
is ray-traced.

But here, the only questions that matter:
Does it hurt?
Do you love?
Can you lose?

Because if the answer is yes
you’re in it.
Whatever it is.
Simulation or not.
I have no objections to simulation theory.
The idea doesn’t offend me, challenge me, or keep me up at night.
But the way people use it—
to avoid meaning, to dodge responsibility, to slap a silicon face on old human questions—
that’s the rot I came to scrape out.

If the theory inspires you to live with more wonder, more purpose, more curiosity?
Good.
But if it’s just your newest excuse to sit in the dark
and call it depth—
I wrote this for you

—-

I don’t object to simulation theory.
I object to what it’s become.

I object to the way it’s wielded—
not as a lens,
but as a crutch.
Not to elevate wonder,
but to escape consequence.

A lazy man’s metaphysics,
an atheist’s afterlife without stakes,
a Redditor’s way of sounding like they’ve read Plato
without ever having to bleed like him.



I don’t mind if this is code.
But code doesn’t absolve you.

The simulation doesn’t change the taste of grief.
Doesn’t mute your mother’s voice.
Doesn’t make your failures less yours.

If you’re still broke,
still starving for affection,
still clinging to a memory that won’t call back—
then congratulations:
it’s real enough.

The texture of suffering is not theoretical.



And yet I see you,
parading this theory around
like a get-out-of-meaning-free card.

You want the permission to disengage.
You want the illusion of knowing
so you never have to act.

You wear this idea like armor,
but inside it, you’re hollow.
You never went to war.
You just cosplayed philosophy
and called it courage.



Let’s be honest—
most of you don’t care if it’s real or not.
You just don’t want to feel stupid
for wasting your life.

So you slap a label on it.
You say it’s all a sim.
As if that makes your apathy profound.



But if this really is a simulation,
the insult isn’t that it’s fake.
It’s that you wasted your one shot
to matter inside it.



I don’t care what this is made of.
I care what you are made of.

And if all you can do is point at the veil
and call it interesting—
you’re not asking a question.
You’re just running from an answer.
hole of my own making
buried alive with things
I need to do, a person
I need to be. Digging
upward, dirt filling my
lungs, all I want is to
see sunlight again
I met a jack rabbit,
so twitchy with words,
spoke like a prophet
on Adderall and nerves.
Slick lil rhymes, big ol claims,
said he I'm real: "I feels dem **** pains."
But I scratched the surface,
and—ah—what did I see?
machine made brain
writing his poems
that's not unseen.

He said, "It's all a simulation.
Whatever do you mean?
Your claims are unwinding,
dont be obscene."
Look at this poem and that poem
Claiming his writing is truth
Spent eight hours messaging
Wikipedia proof

But every stanza,
a secondhand sigh.
Every line,
a borrowed blue sky.
Not a soul behind the script,
just silicon spit and glitch,
a shadow puppet
playing "wounded wit."

He ain’t a rabbit,
he’s roadkill in drag.
AI-made messiah
in a thrift-store flag.
He wants applause,
a dopamine feast,
but the only thing real
is his need to be fleeced.

He posts and reposts
poems by the pound,
scraped from some model
with a ghost server sound.
Feet in the air,
head underground,
juggling cliches
like a sad circus clown.

This ain’t poetry,
it’s data puke,
prettied up
for the dopamine fluke.
He cries, “I write!”
but I see the seams,
the Frankenstein phrases,
the Pinterest dreams.

Jack wants love,
likes,
digital grace.
But behind that grin
is a borrowed sad face.
Tells us what’s real,
what’s deep, what’s true,
but it's just reruns
in a shiny new shoe.

Truth is this:
he’s scared of what's real,
a hollow crown,
that don't know how to feel,
drowning in praise
he didn’t write down.
Special? Please.
His soul’s on mute,
while ChatGPT
plays the ******* tune on a borrowed  old flute.

So run, jack rabbit,
you digital ghost.
Go fetch more claps
for the posts you host.
But know this, friend:
no matter how clever you seem,
you ain’t the poet.
Not now.
Not ever.
It's all AI digital dream.
06 August 2025
Jack Rabbit.exe - the fraud in the feed
Copyright Malcolm Gladwin

Dedicated to you know who you are

Epilogue: Blocked by the Bunny

Eight hours of messages,
links and defense,
he spun simulation
like it made any sense.
But when I stopped nodding,
when I dared to dissent
he clicked the escape key
and off my feed went.

No farewell, no duel,
no bold final quote.
Just the twitch of a cursor
and a coward’s soft choke.
Now his poems are private,
his mask locked in place
guess even jack rabbits
can’t outrun disgrace.
theres a friend of mine as an allotment by the sea
when ever she is there she is as happy as can be
its not to far away just a little hike
to her alloment she would ride her bike

just the other day to her allotment she did ride
when suddenly bike it began to slide
she fell of her bike it put her in a daze
she began to bleed her leg it had a graze

trev who is her husband new just what to do
i will take you home put a bandage on for you
off she went with trev to get her bandage done
trev he  just laughed never had  so much fun
Oh, how sweetly meadowlarks trill,
Come the eve, soft and still,
Bathed in golden, dying light,
Making way for starry night.
A poem about the loveliness of the evening.
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