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102 · Apr 2020
The Flight
Ellis Reyes Apr 2020
LA to Tel Aviv - 13 hours 45 minutes

Boarding: Why did I have to bring Avi’s Bar Mitzvah presents? It’s not fair.

Hour 1: I have no leg room and have to squeeze by two strangers to use the restroom. When will food be served?

Hour 2: What? No food, only a tiny bag of pretzels; mom the discount flyer strikes again.

Hour 3: Ok, settling in with my iPad. Rewatching “Stranger Things”

Hour 4: The lady next to me asked if I could watch something different. Apparently she finds “Stranger Things” disturbing.

Hour 5: The lady complained to the flight attendant. She found “Blackhawk Down” more disturbing than “Stranger Things”.

Hour 6: I get into the overhead bin and take out the bag of American candy that I was going to give to Avi. I’ll repackage what’s left into a Ziplock- he’ll be fine.

Hour 7: ***, WTH??? The woman dozed off and has the worst gas- I CAN’T BREATHE!!!

Hour 8: I motion to my sister to trade seats. She flips me off behind her iPad (so that Mom can’t see) and smiles.

Hour 9: Drink service, “Yes I’ll have a double ***** martini.”
“Sorry, you’re twelve.”

Hour 10: I take out a Sharpie and begin a game. I look up “Help Me” on my language app and write it in 26 languages in the in-flight magazine.

Hour 11: The pilot said that Turkey is below us. Are we still allies?

Hour 12: The bag of candy is nearly empty. I feel sick.

Hour 13: I spent the last 45 minutes apologizing to the lady for throwing up on her.

Hour 13:45: Finally here. Let the party begin.
101 · Nov 2020
Privilege
Ellis Reyes Nov 2020
My teachers say I have privilege
Because my skin is white
Does this privilege protect my family from
the bullets that fly at night?

They say I’ve
Unearned advantages
not given to other races,
If there’s a Black kid somewhere who wants my life
I’d gladly trade them places

They can have the ****** homeless guy
Sleeping by the door
They’re free to take the rancid trash
that litters
Our hallway floor
They can have the drugs and needles
the diarrhea on the stairs
They can have the hopelessness and misery
that I see everywhere

My mom works at two jobs
In the day and late at night
My dad’s upstate in prison
Locked up since I was five
Our apartment’s filled with roaches
and mice that sneak around;
the rats that move inside the walls
make a scratching sound

I wash our clothes in the bathtub
Cause the laundry’s not too safe
Our neighbor was robbed by **** heads,
they slashed him in the face

The mold around the windows
makes my sister sick
Every day I hear her wheezing
struggling for each breath
I worry how Mom would handle
another child’s death

Some days there’s food for us to eat
Some days there is not
The school food wasn’t perfect,
but at least the stuff was hot
Now the small bus brings us sandwiches,
string cheese and a piece of fruit
I wish they delivered on weekends,
We get hungry on those days too

If this is the privilege my whiteness earns
You can have it back
I don’t think squalor plays favorites
White, Hispanic, or Black…
101 · Jun 2021
Three Lines - Shin
Ellis Reyes Jun 2021
When I suffer
My thoughts are always
of you
101 · Jun 2021
Three Lines - Ayin
Ellis Reyes Jun 2021
I'm A positive
You were AB negative
I'm so, so sorry...
97 · Jun 2021
Three Lines - Dalet
Ellis Reyes Jun 2021
I am a tumbleweed
Rootless, common;
Windblown to oblivion
96 · May 2021
DNR
Ellis Reyes May 2021
DNR
Beep
Beep
Beep
Beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep

I wonder
Will this disappoints them too?
95 · Jun 2021
Weltschmerz
Ellis Reyes Jun 2021
Does everyone feel the heaviness?
Does everyone see society coming apart at the seams?
Does everyone taste the bitterness that people have for one another?
Does everyone hear the rage being spat in the public square?
Does everyone smell the destruction of the institutions that once bound us together?

How can we experience all of this and still have hope?
I'm feeling beaten down today. No specific reason, just the accumulation of it all.
92 · Sep 2020
Who Am I?
Ellis Reyes Sep 2020
Who Am I?

I’m the neighbor who helped your son when he fell off of his bike
I’m the guy in the grocery store who gave you a five when you were two dollars short
I’m the driver who let you go first at the four-way stop because I could see that you were in a hurry
I’m the passerby who helped you load your car at Costco
I’m the man who greeted you at church
I’m the fellow who held the elevator as you rushed to catch it
I’m the geek who helped you with your computer at Starbucks
I’m the one who mows your grandma’s lawn and weeds her garden – for free
I’m the citizen who picks up trash at the park
I’m the old guy from across the way who returned your lost dog
I’m the anonymous donor
I’m the coach who believes in every kid

And you hate me because of a hat?
My first poem in awhile.
91 · Jun 2021
Three Lines - Nun
Ellis Reyes Jun 2021
Their tombstones stand valorous guard
to an increasingly ungrateful
nation
91 · May 2019
Places Labeled Home
Ellis Reyes May 2019
There are many
The farm
The house on Wilson Road
The places in Texas and Kansas
Not really.

I am not a tree
I am a tumbleweed
Rootless, restless
Waiting for the wind
To take me to the next place
91 · May 2020
Beast to Beast
Ellis Reyes May 2020
You don’t need my help
You don’t want my help
But I’ll lie down over here
To keep the predators at bay
While you heal
or die
A note to a friend
Who is suffering
90 · Dec 2021
Untitled 12/15/21
Ellis Reyes Dec 2021
There are points in life
When we run out of
Tomorrows
90 · Jun 2021
Three Lines - Samech
Ellis Reyes Jun 2021
Can you see the poems
that I wrote for you
from Heaven?
89 · Jun 2021
Three Lines - Kaf
Ellis Reyes Jun 2021
If you care
As much as you say that you care
Why would you do that?
88 · Jun 2021
Three Lines - Gimel
Ellis Reyes Jun 2021
What would it take
For us to be friends
Once again?
88 · May 2020
Tribe
Ellis Reyes May 2020
Your eyes are weak
So you wander off
Your bones ache
So it hurts to move
You’ve lost your ripping teeth
So you chew in small bites
Your mighty voice
is now a feeble whimper

You are moments
Or days
from eternity

However…

Until you cross that threshold

I will guide you
I will feed you
I will protect you

I am your tribesman
I can do no other
87 · Dec 2021
Retro Perspective
Ellis Reyes Dec 2021
Yesterday I bumped along dusty farm roads in the back of his truck
Yesterday he proposed to my Godmother
Yesterday I was the ring bearer in his wedding
Yesterday I splashed in his apartment swimming pool with my cousins
Yesterday we went fishing
Yesterday I saw him at the pier
Yesterday we barbecued tri-tip and reminisced over old photos
Yesterday he cheered for the Giants and the 49ers
Yesterday he laughed until tears rolled from the corners of his eyes
Yesterday there was a tomorrow to look forward to…
My Godfather passed away last night. He will be missed.
86 · Jun 2021
Three Lines - Chet
Ellis Reyes Jun 2021
Betrayal is bitter herbs
Leaving a permanent
putrid aftertaste.
85 · Jun 2021
Three Lines - Lamed
Ellis Reyes Jun 2021
It was never my place to judge you
Why is it yours
To judge me?
85 · May 2021
Enough
Ellis Reyes May 2021
How do you know that your life has been good enough?

That you've done enough
That you've been enough
That you've accomplished enough
That you've given enough
That you've strived enough
That you've endured enough
That you've toughed it out enough times
That you've ****** up enough hardship
That you've checked enough boxes and jumped through enough hoops

How do you know
that when all of the plusses are added
and all of the minuses are taken away
that your life doesn't equal
a big f-ing zero?
85 · Mar 2020
Why?
Ellis Reyes Mar 2020
Do your words matter
When you speak to an audience of none?
82 · Feb 2020
Child
Ellis Reyes Feb 2020
Your arms aren’t quite right, your head’s too big
Your legs are turned in awkward ways,
You struggle to take each breath.
We couldn’t love you more,
But I need to know...
Will you forgive
our giving
you this
Life?
82 · Mar 2020
Bread
Ellis Reyes Mar 2020
Early on Sunday mornings
Uncle Matthew clattered about downstairs;
hours before the sun was scheduled to rise.

After a while,
the warm smells of morning
wafted their way around the spacious farmhouse;
Fresh coffee
Bacon cut thick
so that it didn’t shrivel up to nothing in the pan,
and most special of all,
his honey bread.

We were convinced that God himself gave Uncle Matthew that recipe
as it was the closest thing to Manna that any one of us had ever tasted.
82 · Jun 2021
Pantry
Ellis Reyes Jun 2021
What's in the jars Granny?
Them's dills
Them's bread and butter
And the smaller jar's spicy pickles

What's in the jars Granny?
That one there's chow chow
Next to it's sweet relish
and the one in back is sauerkraut

What's in the jars Granny?
Well, the purple one's grape jelly
The one in the middle's orange marmalade
and the big brown one's apple butter

Why do you put up so much food, Granny?
Cause I lived through a season of lack called the Great Depression
and I never want y'all kids to be as hungry as my kids were.

Take what you want.
I'll make more.
I'm teaching myself to preserve food this summer. It's something my mom knew how to do, but never passed along to me. Her mom, my Granny, put up food all year long and shared it generously.
82 · Jun 2021
Three Lines - Tet
Ellis Reyes Jun 2021
When no one else is
You are
There for me
My Eshet Chayil, my "Woman of Valor", for 34 years.
Ellis Reyes May 2019
I don’t miss you every day

I didn’t when you were alive

Our relationship wasn’t like that

I do think of you sometimes…

When I make spaghetti sauce
When I listen to gospel music
When I defend unborn life

When I hear a particular twang in someone’s voice
When I smell the desert sage
When a preacher is filled with the Holy Ghost

When Blacks and Whites harmonize
and bring together the best of both cultures
I think of you

When my kids sing
When the music is loud
I see your thumbprint on their souls

There’s
Tamale pie
Pork ‘n Beans
Jiffy Cornbread
and Collard Greens
With the extra bit of salt
The dash of heat
The reserved bacon fat
I gift your flavors to the future

It’s been ten years and
I don’t think of you always
but when I do

You are there
80 · May 2020
Somewhere
Ellis Reyes May 2020
I search for you
in my dreams

I see the people,
The places,
and things
That surrounded us
But you are not there

It doesn’t stop me from
Running here and there
Looking frantically;
Hoping for a glimpse
Of you

I ask about you and they point to
An address that doesn’t exist
An empty hallway
An impenetrable crowd

Are they helping me
Or
Mocking me?

I press on

Because

Your perfume lingers,
so I know that you’re here
Somewhere
A recurring dream
79 · Jun 2021
Three Lines - Qoph
Ellis Reyes Jun 2021
I hope that I've done something
in my life
To make you proud....
79 · Jun 2021
Three Lines - Zayin
Ellis Reyes Jun 2021
You will never know
How much
I didn't trust you....
79 · Jun 2021
Three Lines - Vav
Ellis Reyes Jun 2021
The bleeding has slowed
You can remove your knife
From my back
79 · May 2021
Transmogrification
Ellis Reyes May 2021
Caterpillars become butterflies
through metamorphosis
Plants grow and flowers bloom
through photosynthesis
But opinions,
No matter how popular,
do not become facts
by consensus
78 · Apr 2020
My Dad - In One Donut
Ellis Reyes Apr 2020
It's glazed,
That's it.
With coffee -
Black
My dad. What you see is what you get.
77 · Mar 2020
Empty
Ellis Reyes Mar 2020
My heart is empty and cold
Its warmth drained one note at a time
By the music that has haunted me
Since…. that day.

Its major chords
Its tender melodies
Its painful, infectious happiness
Exsanguinate me

People say time heals

It doesn’t completely

Because scars,
Still tender to the music’s touch,
Never stop bleeding
Some songs stab you in the heart
and keep stabbing....
77 · Jun 2021
Three Lines - Bet
Ellis Reyes Jun 2021
A thief in the night,
Alzheimer's steals life
One moment at a time
76 · May 2021
Survivor
Ellis Reyes May 2021
I Am The Roach

You hate me
You want me and everyone like me dead
You crush us
You poison us
You revile our existence.

If asked, you couldn’t come up with one good thing to say about me

You see me as a
filthy
disgusting
disease-carrying vermin

And maybe you’re right

However…

After the floods
And the blizzards
And he droughts
AND the pandemics

I will still be here.

Will you?
75 · Feb 2020
One Donut
Ellis Reyes Feb 2020
I am a plain cake donut
Boring
Unfrosted
Easy to disregard

Unless you look on the inside

There you will find
Bacon
that’s interestingly salty;
Black strap molasses
which adds depth
but isn’t too sweet;
And a single berry
for a blast of the unexpected
My response to the prompt - Describe Yourself in One Donut
74 · May 2019
The End
Ellis Reyes May 2019
My death will be like rain
It will seem unpleasant for a moment
Then
You will see how much nicer the world is
And you'll be happy
74 · Apr 2020
The Pit Inside
Ellis Reyes Apr 2020
They say, “You’re young. You have plenty of time”

They say, “You’ve lived a long life. You should be happy with what you have”

Emptiness doesn’t care about age

Loneliness doesn’t respect a life well lived



They sit inside of us

Eating away at our happiness

Consuming our souls

Until there’s no reason

To go on
74 · Mar 2020
Morning in Waziristan
Ellis Reyes Mar 2020
Acrid smoke and rancid sweat fill the small room
Five men sit in a tight circle deciding a girl’s fate
In this culture, men always decide a girl’s fate
Hard faces
Angry eyes
Hatred

She is called Sabiha,
‘Morning’ in her language
And like mornings in her village she is
Warm, inviting, hopeful
But she is also independent and willful
and covetous of her dignity

At nine years
Sabiha fought
and bit
and refused the auntie’s blade
Keeping her tiny body intact

At fourteen
Sabiha ran blindly into the night
She refused to marry the old fat man
Who reeked of goats and hookah

At seventeen
Sabiha declined the advances of her protector,
She refused to be his ‘pleasure wife’
She kept her honor

Her uncles arrived the next day

And now they glared venom

and Sabiha knew

That by noon

Morning would end

And her long darkness

Would begin
72 · Mar 2020
Late Autumn
Ellis Reyes Mar 2020
Water the plants,
****, forgot to water the plants.

What else?
I fed the fish,
threw out the trash,
walked the dog,
but there was one other thing….

What the hell was it?

Right, here it is,
on this slip of paper,
call the Alzheimer’s Foundation.

Why do I need to do that?
72 · Apr 2020
To Katie, From Wade
Ellis Reyes Apr 2020
I’m socially tolerable

Not rich enough
Not attractive enough
Not sporty enough
To be popular
But smart enough
And funny enough
And different enough
To be interesting

You can talk to me in class
You can say Hi to me in the hall
You can text me for homework answers
But you won’t eat lunch with me
You won’t walk with me
You aren’t my friend,
Really

But I pretend that you are
Just so that I can have one.
72 · Apr 2021
Milestones
Ellis Reyes Apr 2021
I remember the day that you were born
I held you while the nurse bathed you in warm water
I held you when they stamped your tiny footprints on your birth certificate
I handed you to Mom for the first time

I remember when you learned to crawl,
Because you didn’t.
You sat up, dug your heels in, flexed your knees,
And scooted across the floor.

I remember the morning when you threw a fit because you didn’t like what I had picked
Out for you to wear – you were two.

I remember the many miles that you and your brother
Drove in circles around our backyard in his electric John Deere

I remember the magical fairy who left you notes and stories at night.
Her name was Donnabella.

I remember the astonished look on the reading specialist’s face
When you dropped ‘oviparous’ on her after she asked you to,
“Name a word that starts with ‘O’.
No kindergarten was necessary for you.

I remember thinking, “I can’t believe they’re both in school.”

I remember when you were in Prep Choir
Singing, dancing
Loving it,
Having no idea where it would lead

I remember your years in Girls’ Choir
The Winter and Spring performances
The hard work in between
And the frustration you felt
at the favoritism
and at people
who didn’t put in their all

I remember how proud you were to become a percussionist
To learn to play the bass
and the snare
and the tympani
and the marimba
and everything else that you could hit or shake

I remember when you began to dip your toes into theater
Ensemble parts first
And Crew
Then cast
With clever bios in the program
Then larger roles
And more clever bios
Then leading roles
And a growing desire to make theater
your life’s work

And here you are, today
Pursuing just that.

I remember how every teacher
who has ever known you
has loved you
and still asks about you
How none of them are at all surprised
That you are where you are
Doing what you are doing

Now it’s your turn to remember
How much we love you
How much we are behind you
And how very proud we are of you.

Happy Birthday.

Love,

Dad
To my daughter on her 18th birthday
71 · Mar 2020
If My Life Were Music
Ellis Reyes Mar 2020
If my life were music...

it would be an unlistenable cacophony of sound.
It would be carefully scripted symphonies
interrupted by screaming brass improvisations
It would be triumphant orchestral overtures made ridiculous by banjos and Jew’s Harps
It would be beautiful meditative chant debased by infusions of guitar-screeching heavy metal.
If my life were music...

It would be looped and played continuously at Gitmo.
Ellis Reyes Nov 2021
Evil has brown eyes
Love has brown eyes

And blue
and green

Love's skin is pale
Evil’s skin is pale

And tan
And dark brown

Evil wears a police uniform
Love wears a police uniform

And a teacher’s lanyard
And an apron

Love speaks calmly
Evil speaks calmly

And gently
And kindly

Evil speaks harshly
Love speaks harshly

And angrily
And cruelly

Love hides behind the Bible
Evil hides behind the Bible

And the Torah
And the Qu’ran

Evil is male
Love is male

And female
And all of the genders in between

Evil, like Love, isn’t in how a person looks
Love, like Evil, isn’t in how a person sounds
Evil, like Love, isn’t in how a person prays

Love, like Evil, is in what a person does
Evil, like Love, is in what a person does not do
70 · Mar 2020
Goodbye Old Friend
Ellis Reyes Mar 2020
My friend died today.

He loved kids,
He was playful until his body wouldn't let him play any longer.  
Despite the pain that he must have suffered
the last few months of his life,
he endured stoically and without complaint;
even managing a smile
to greet old friends
and other visitors.

He was curious and smart and loyal
Devoted to those who showed kindness to him.
He was protective
without being overbearing, intrusive, or jealous.

My friend loved the countryside
Where he lived out the last few years of his life.
Having acres to roam and explore suited his wanderlust.
Having a family that loved him filled his heart with happiness.

He loved to hike and camp.
Exploring new trails, meadows, and beaches were his favorite diversions.

He loved hotdogs.
He had a floppy ear,
3/4 of a tail
and hated to be confined.

I loved that old dog
and I know that he loved all of us.

Rest easy my friend.
May you find plenty of places to explore in your next home.
A eulogy that I wrote for a great German Shepherd that we lost a long time ago.
68 · Feb 2020
Claudette J.
Ellis Reyes Feb 2020
Daily Report

Morning:
Disheveled
Matted hair from a turbulent night
The angry woman leans over to bite her own arm

Day:
Drool falls in a long sticky stream
Staining the ill-fitting gown
Vacant eyes gaze forward in an unblinking stare
Sometimes her hands shake involuntarily
The restraints rub weeping wounds on her wrists and ankles
Frequently she screams incoherently at everything and nothing
She smells of ***** and infection

Evening:
She delights in having her hair done by the young women on staff
Brightening as they pin, curl, flip, and comb
Next the make-up
Hand-picked shades
From an expensive city boutique
Meticulously applied

Night:
Her face softens as she sleeps.
The moonlight casts a gentle glow,
masking the many wrinkles
Her eyes move beneath the lids
Following a story known only to her
When my mom was in a rehab center after her second stroke, this woman was in several of the rooms that I walked by. Fortunately, my mom never became her.
67 · Jun 2021
Three Lines - Heh
Ellis Reyes Jun 2021
Their vile words
Their contemptible hypocrisies
Are acid on my soul
67 · Apr 2020
Silence Is Acid
Ellis Reyes Apr 2020
Silence is corrosive.
If thoughts remain inside
they burn their way to very dark places
and start to consume my soul
I have to get them out...
Or I will lose myself to them
63 · May 2021
Mosaic
Ellis Reyes May 2021
I write because my other attempts at artistic expression were mocked
I sacrifice subtlety for clarity because my wife is unambiguous
I work hard because my dad respects hard work
I have public feelings and private ones because life has taught me not to trust
I tell my secrets to dogs, because they keep them
I allow music to fill my soul, because my mom let me see how it filled hers
I see the potential in others because God sacrificed his Son to show the potential that he sees in me
This is a contribution to an ongoing trend on social media.
63 · May 2021
New Words, New Thoughts
Ellis Reyes May 2021
Do you ever get sick of your own voice?
Do your own thoughts ever bore you?
If so, what do you do?
When I feel mentally stale, I read.
I learn new things
I speak different languages
This forces me to think in words different than my own
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