It always starts the same, like a constant repeat.
What connection struck, this guy I that I happen to meet.
It's a strange design to read a mind and want to keep it near,
to build a bond of confidence, and hold the friendship dear,
When every joke and secret shared feels like a perfect, platonic art,
Why does a hint of romance feel like a switch that pulls it all apart?
You feel the subtle shift in meaning, a question hanging in the air,
Believe the only path forward is to act as if you just don't care,
A kindred spirit in a million, a connection you can't just ignore,
What is the value of this union, when you know he's hoping for something more?
I am just closing all the windows, before he tries to break the door,
What is this closeness, what is this trust, what is this solace, if it's keeping score?
Only way comes to become gentle ghosting, why must a kindness feel so cruel?
This understanding felt so honest, 'til it became a different kind of fuel?
And how is it that as always, I feel like a villain,
I never signed up for more, now my loss to attain.
What is it now left for me, that I must keep erasing people from my lane.
I am jaded to meet anyone, to keep myself on the edge of being sane.