You are near
Almost touch my skin
But I see nothing

You are near
Here, whispering
My name
I hear nothing

You are near
Eye to eye
Smiling face
I don't feel so

You are near
Hold me
But, you touch her too
I can't

You are near
And all those blue is Cold

One day, I had a new friend.
He said that he likes to play with me.
Then we always went to somewhere together.
Played guitar and sang together.
Drew and ate together.
One day, he brought me to a new place that such a beautiful place.
There are many friends at that place and they were so friendly.
Day by day until I was so close with them.
One day, he leaved me and let me with the other friends.
He never played with me again even for a minute or a second.
But he always plays with the other friends.
He leaved me until I forgot that he was my friend.
I felt like I swam to deep at that place and forgot where I came from.
One day, I made sure myself that I dare to leave that place and forget everything about that place and the people.
Day by day I never come again to that place.
One day, now and forever...
I realize this is my place, home.
They are just the people that thought that they are the angels.
They're not!
They force me to dreaming the dreams that I don't want to dream.
It's okay, now I'm better to stay with my people in reality.
Catch the dream that I love.
Forget everything about that fake world.
Start the new life with the reality.

Have you ever feel
Your poetry is the best?
Have you ever feel
So warm to write a poetry?
Have you ever feel
Writing makes you better? feel better?
Have you ever feel
A poet is crazy?
Crazy of writing?
Have you ever feel
As a poet, has so many secrets, hidden things?
Have you ever hope
Someone will understand your poetry? or not?
We always inside our poetry and always somebody inside too, or stars...

My morning,
The freshiest morning when I open the door
and I see you
Messy hair
Your eyes tells me your story
How should i tell you?

Flowers,
Those what I feel
Everytime I see you
The smoke inside it
I can't handle it
How should I tell You?

Heart beat,
Tell me every reason
Every words
Like a song that I have to listen
How should I tell you?

So, hi..
I'm falling
How should I tell you?

Today is the day, I realize that I'm so right.
Right, to don't believe if there is somebody who said "I love you until I die" or "if you die, I will die too".
Or I will smile like a doll and look like a fool.
I can write those sentences to be some stupid love songs.
What I know as well as I always do, a person who really loving you will never ever hurts you or leaves you and never break their promises.
Nobody wrong in this situation, there is only who is the stronger and better. I believe the universe wants me to feel and learn how to get the strength.
I'm not the kind of a person who give up on someone. I don't hate people. I don't leave people and I'm not lost.
Leaved, it doesn't mean weak.
Yes, there will be times, I get mad, upset and sad.
I'm not the kind of a person who break the promises.
I keep it as well as I always do.
That is one of my best.
I don't escape from the memories, it grows me up.
In the end, I'm the winner of these feelings.
I'm forgiving myself, everybody in this story and everything.
God wants me to be patient, strong and happy, so I am. :)

You are who busy
with your fake lovers
You are who sleep
on you fake dreams
I quit from you

Kulit hanya lah kulit
Yang pada saat tiba waktunya
Haruslah lepas dan ditinggalkan
Akanlah hancur dan lebur
Kembali menyatu hingga tanpa rupa

Silent night of the Silent's Day
Not scary or blind
17th of March
Stars, Milky way
Peaceful, romantic, happiness
Wonderful sky
Without lamp, stars is beautiful

I still remember
The way you let these tears rain my pain
I still remember
The way you left your fake words
I still remember
The way you leave me
I still remember well
The way you show her face
Her wings, her skin,
and.. I still remember well
The way she left you alone to get him
Sorry, May I laugh?

I don't want to show anything right now
I just don't miss anyone
I just miss to loving
I don't have somebody to writen
and...
I miss to write

Lahir dan besar di desa yang bisa dibilang sangat sejuk
Tumbuh dengan aman, nyaman dan bahagia
Bermain ke ladang, kebun, sungai, bahkan hampir seperti hutan
Selalu aman dan tetap jauh dari bahaya
Teman-teman berdatangan ke rumah untuk bermain dan berbagi cerita
Berkumpul seperti keluarga besar
Lalu aku pergi dari desa dimana aku dilahirkan dan mulai tinggal di tempat yang baru di desa yang baru dengan situasi yang berbeda
Aku tumbuh disana dan mengenal berbagai pembaharuan
Hari demi hari hingga bertahun-tahun aku menyaksikan berbagai perubahan
Dimana banyak perubahan yang sulit dipercaya
Hampir segala sesuatu yang aku lihat dan alami sulit dipercaya
Hingga timbul perasaan tidak nyaman, gerah, takut, sesak, terancam, tertindas di tempat yang ku sebut rumah
Rumah, bukan bangunan yang aku tinggali
Tapi disini, di tanah aku berpijak
Semua sudah tak lagi sama
Hingga muncul dalam otakku
Haruskah aku tinggal atau aku tinggalkan?
Rumah,
Aku merindukanmu

Don't see my past,
You'll be fall.. so deep, to me.
I want you see me now
As what you see
Love me today and tomorrow
Save my yesterday

I
I want to write
But
I fail I fail and fail again
I just realize,
I'm sleepy

I was nothing
feel so lost
enjoy myself
and this emptiness

But

you come

call my name
hold these cold hands
touch my hair
look at these dark brown eyes

Sing my name
near me
safe me
lead me

driving,
Ice cream at the cold night
waiting
read me

Take me away from those dark memories

Voices, colors,
I mean the birds
I mean the rainbow
Those are what fills our morning

That child, leaf and that sunflower
Don't you see them bloom?
Feel it, I guess you won't forget

There's no blue without the tears
There's no smile without the sparks
I hope you can feel it
How bright this life

I hope you sit under the pale night
Until you see every spark of the sky
Until you see them bloom,
Yes, flower..
Our Stars won't ever lie to us
I bloom, you bloom, our wings
Sparkling

I try to find something that I need
Which I can call a magical
I mean the frozen heart
Wishpering,
Out of beautiful

They never know who I am
They never see us
It's not so wrong
But I just can't handle it
It is hurt to think and walk with it
I'm the person who beside you
But they never know
It is a song that they never heard
It is a taste that they never know
Why can't you hold my hand there
Why can't you beside me there
Why can't you hug me there
Why can't you look at me here
Why do we need a space?
You and me are we
It is love, but
Why can't we say that we're in Love
Why should we hide away
Why do you just stand and breathe softly like without me
Why do you just walk in front of me
Why don't you call my name
Why don't you tell them my name
Why can't you show me
When can you show them
Why do we got a love that is homeless
It might be like a secret love song
But what I feel is more than a song
You're not someone's baby
I'm not too
But why I just have to stay and watch you walk with so many heavy reasons
Tell them ene day
Unseen Yours

There're so many words dancing in my mind
But, I'm sorry
I sleep
You are dancing in this dark world
But, your words means nothing
Would you sing with your heart?
I would like to listen it, I do
'Touch,
Every inch of you
Warm...and I fall
What would we do, babe

I've ever fallin' in Love
Handsome boys?
A simple boy with kind heart?
A rich boy with his ball?
An artist?
A musician?
Stright hair?
White skin?
Cute smile?
Many boys?
Once I fallin' in Love for the first time
He hold his camera
"Up" movie
Papers
Our songs
Ice cream?
We were so beautiful until we forget our time is short
Until we never know where we are
I've ever fallin' in Love
And now it is a missing feel
Where we are?

I write when I feel in love
But it's been along time without writing
And..It's been along time too without some feeling