For once in my life
not knowing
has become more comforting
than worrying

he said it was yellow
let me paint my walls
view life
through golden bands
I'll be yellow.

keeping your femininity
after you've
weathered unimaginable storms
is a high form
of rebellion.

Break my bones;
cut my throat.
Pull me open,
learn the ropes.

Breath me in;
taste the fear.
Shank my skin;
stand and cheer.

Kick my head;
let me bleed.
Unbolt my veins;
enjoy the read.

Gouge my eyes;
punch my face.
Wrap me up
in your embrace.

to wonder is simple and human and fine;
but it is to relinquish control that’s divine.

i’m so sorry
that no one saw the dangers
of a sleeping sixteen-year-old
being kissed by strangers.