David Bojay

David Bojay Dec 2018

farewell
I’m hoping this ends well
and starts anew
it is you
the one I see in all my views

so much has been learned

experience was earned

now is all we know

I understand when you say you don’t see anything in the future

we can’t dwell in the unknown

and we shouldn’t decide based on experiences from the past even if it makes sense

Easy for me to say I guess

“this pain will last”, I say

the thought lingers inside my brain

but I know I’m openness

the dissolution of a mask

I love you so much

#mind #feels #miss #you #love #thought #memory #consciousness

David Bojay Dec 2018

it only escalates into nothingness

i question why
the lonesome cries rely on lies embedded in the "SELF" to survive
moments where I'm barely getting by
gazing at a sky
waiting for a reply to give my life some stimuli
it all seems fine

reflecting on memories when I rewind

nevermind, I'll never mind either times I felt like dying

in my mind so I unbind all connections that don't meet eye to eye

where do I find a place that doesn't remind me of **** that I denied
i was blind

concluded that I was combined

awareness
&
the body/mind

I cannot deny the experiences that were opposite of divine

so...

tell me why I'm FREE

yet so confined

do I awake the second I die?

or must I prepare a permanent goodbye?

#consciousness #mind #body #soul #being #emotion #feeling #awake

David Bojay Dec 2018

groove

your move
flee or stay
deep in the feelings that thought faded yesterday
too much senseless tea
had to stray
away from the past that's been decayed
thoughts turn to knots
my throat stuck in plot
this feeling I wish i had not caught
in an empty lot
with nothing to spot
happiness i should've bought
too much is too much
seeing dots in the ceiling where there is no
sense in having my feels to jot

David Bojay Nov 2018

1:04 pm before dat workwerk

flowers left unseen
even if my prescense is unseen
i wonder for the reasons to bleed
to think of all there is to see
to know the unlimitedness of it all

back here again
before work
to write in skeptical delight
to know and hold my ground tight
the grip doesn't soften

awaiting for my shift to start
gather myself in my car
reflecting on today and the hw left undone
i dont' get this **** for ****

one day, it'll come together
without the people of today

and the thoughts that followed

out of my way
you ponder in my doubts to portray
a side of me that never wins a game

#mind #thoughtful #mindful #meditation #love #awareness #consciousness

David Bojay Nov 2018

yesterday in my journal

around the space there’s fragility
If I break will I

come to my senses?

to seek for love is to seek for denial in the obvious of wrong times

used to share our lives and now it’s just too unsettling
Should of thought of me when I was trembling
To foresee what we didn’t know
Like we should to begin with
In the terrors of my mind I hear shrieks to add some tension

#mind #thoughtful #mindful #meditation #love #awareness #consciousness

David Bojay Nov 2018

12:50

the mess has been swept
the tears have been wept
i no longer long for greater length of our days together
to sleep, to be alive
to breathe, to attend today
moving my body
in and out the store
in and out the gym
in and out my room
in and out your life
only to have memory of all places and minds i've been
the doors are shutting, and I'm waiting for somebody to come out the "other" side
but they are clueless
the imagination is broken
and the train tracks have rusted
the destination is blocked
thank all of your thoughts

#mind #thoughtful #mindful #meditation #love #awareness #consciousness

David Bojay Nov 2018

12:52 11/25

to oversee

to "feel" neglect on some kind of truth

the one that makes you go crazy

whatever it is

it's beautiful with you

but i shook hands with an end i couldn't accept

on to the next i guess

i can't bare with the unknown regarding you

another sip
to numb my lips

imagining the possiblity of us

desiring trust from myself

can't dwell in the hell i've created for my health

living to overcome the previous days

a transit to a better tomorrow

a mentality to try and follow

for no reason but satisfation with ones self

why would i ever want to satisfy my "SELF"?

"i" shouldn't need you, this longing is at war with my being

#mind #thoughtful #mindful #meditation #love #awareness #consciousness