Under my smile it's broken,
from all the hidden pain you caused me
from all the love that is lost
from all of you.

Under my smile is unbearable hate
not had towards you
not hate towards love
but hate towards me.

Under my smile I am just a girl
in a very ****** up world
waiting for my chance to escape
just pacing.

You're fading from me
Taking back your love
If I ever even had it
You don't love me anymore
I know it, believe me.
It just hurts to know,
to accept
to acknowledge the pain
Once before I've been hurt,
but never like this
Leaving me in a place I never been by myself
hurts to know I'm by myself
I'm simply amazed at how you've changed.

maybe one day someone will come into my life and actually mean what they say

I do not want to hurt anymore,
I want to be free of this burden,
I want to tell my body what for,
To be healed all of a sudden.

I want to walk and run,
Complete and free,
To do more and then some,
I just want to be.

They do not understand,
How could they?
The pain there to stand,
Scared to what to say.

Wanting someone to care,
Feeling much with their heart,
Not alone to bear,
Ready to make a start.

To be there in my need,
Accept me where and who I may be,
Spirit to Spirit standing in my stead,
In never leaving or saying goodbye to me.

I can't believe it.
I won't.
You lied to my face
You broke my heart without even laying a hand on it.
Will we ever be the same?
Is it honestly worth all the pain?
I ask myself all the time
I act like everything is fine.
You lied to my face
And I just took it all in
What a sin.
Do you realize what you've done?
You broke my heart without laying a hand on it.
You ripped it to pieces then apologized
You tore it from the inside, ripped raw from the core.
Poor me? Please no sympathy
Cause I feel no pain
I feel numb
If your happy to hear I'll tell you your will is done.

I've never felt less of a young woman.
Less of person.
Empty of heart.

Depressing doesn't even begin to explain the pain I'm enduring.
The neglect I'm feeling
The hurt I'm baring.

The way you use to make me feel so beautiful
I feel so ugly now.
The way you brightened my day
the days are long and dull now.
The way you use to touch my soft skin
Im stone cold now.
Bare. Naked and raw.

But I never have would have imagined I could feel this way for you.