i find myself surprised when i cry
and it doesn't last forever

I have to go
To a place I don't know

I do it all for myself
Not for you

I wanna know another me
So that I can be free

I go to a place where I can think
Where I know what I want

I do it all for me
Its a place where I can see

That place is my mind
And there is the me, that I hope to find

Both can ****
        The only difference is
                      Cigarettes shatter lungs
         She shatters everything

            I remembered the first moment
my lips pressed the filter
     as I lit it up breathed it all
                savored every smoke
       as if we covered up painful lies
        in a container of painkillers

The same way  
we used to pressed our lips
     sparked something between us
           savored every moment we had
    as if our love was a rose
               in a valley of tulips