I have only
Cried
Been depressed
And embarrassed
Why can't I just leave him?

Maybe I love him more than my happiness

pen on paper
excite me
more than
lips on lips

stars never looked brighter before
moon now turned my friend and more
nights are longer than before
holding tears and helping me restore
oceans where I went to find shells and play
now seem a lot deeper than it looks
never thought the breeze it brought had
poems and peace embedded within
the rain, the snow
and the memories they show
from the first sight
to last fight
and even more
Unable to control my feelings
I flow through pen on papers
while some called it poem
some called it pathetic
but all I knew was him
and I was in love
loving him was everything

wonder
how I freeze in your hotness
and melt in your cold hands

We both loved him
He made her his wife
And made me a poet

but never with me
cos even in dreams
you deserve the best

in his eyes
I wanna drown
in his lips
I wanna melt
in his warmth
I wanna die
and in his arms
I wanna be buried