I am the hermit who lives in my head.
I gather...
I analyse...
I stow away all that I've learnt.

Because when the wind would blow
and the earth wouldn't understand.
When the world would tremble,
shaken by man's ruthless hand.

I am the hermit who lives in my head.
I listen...
I keep...
I stockpile in the shadows.

Because in my blood exists grudge...
And my bones, weary from despair.
My skin screams exhaustion
and my body feigns to care.

I am the hermit who lives in my head.
I overthink...
I hide...
I hoard all my thoughts.*

Because the walls have ears
and these pages bear eyes.
What my heart truly knows...
Is that your mouth tells only lies.

You're the cure to this melancholy nostalgia that has followed me through life.
Nothing is as bad as I remember and everything does get better.
We can face this together.

in the silence
our thoughts are the loudest
they're the creaks of the floorboards
letting us know
we are not alone
whether the voices are good or bad
the silence really will never invade our minds

Nobody loves the girl in grey
She's pretty and smart
But that's all for today
She will climb mountains for you
Will cross oceans for you
Will cry for you
Will DIE for you,
But nobody would do the same

The girl in grey has pains of her own
She's tired
She's scared
She's all alone

For years and years
They've watched her play
With that smile of hers
Day by day

No one understood her crying tears
Or the constant questions
Or the lingering fears
She was strange
She was shy?

Nobody knows the girl in grey
She has so many stories
To tell day by day

She has so many secrets she's willing to share
She has so many hours she's willing to spare
Because one other person all dressed in grey
Is too many to count
In her eyes
Day by day

To see all the pain in the world around
To see all the suffering always found
She'd rather it just be herself

She's the girl in grey with the heart of a rainbow
She feels your pain like it's her own
She will never give up, cuz that's who she is
No matter if your name is John, Ann, or Liz

She will always be there
Just lurking around
Hoping against all odds
All girls in grey will be found

And loved to no end,
like she never could be
She loves herself like she loves her family
She will hold on

Nobody loves the girl in grey
She's kind and generous
And she's here day by day
She'll be blamed for things she didn't do
She'll cry at night at truths untrue
But never will she be blue
The girl in grey

Nobody loves the girl in grey

When she was three years old,
they took a hot metal lettering
and placed it against her skin.

She was branded,
labeled for everyone to see.

She whimpered for hours
through the tears and agony,
the word slowly sank in.

Now a man
wants her to trust him.
She hides the word
but she knows he can see.

Its all she's every been,
all she's ever felt,
all she's ever known.

She traces the word,
feels the pain,
as if the steaming metal
was being placed on her flesh
over and over again.

He takes her hand
leads her through the dark.

But in the light
how can she trust him?

She's always going
to be lacking,
always going to be branded
'fatherless'.

They say only fools fall in love

so an idiot I am

to have fallen in love so young

and so fast

and so without a glance back.

Love's tragic ocean

has followed me around

for years

and I have stayed above water

because I will marry him

eventually.

I have known him for years

he is my friend

my brother

my partner in crime

and so I stay afloat

because I will marry him

eventually.

I have seen others drown in love

I have heard their screams.

They tried to cross the ocean

but then failed and stayed forever

on the sandy floor.

I wait for the day when his loved ones

will make it across

and he will await with open arms.

But the day is yet to come.

And so my heart beats on

and I dodge every wave

closer and closer

until one day

the sea will part

and he will give his heart

to me