i was afraid of letting people know
the existence of the darkness inside me
and then an old man said,
"why should you? when it is what makes you a whole?"

i beg you my king
cease this torment you cast upon me
i do not mind of the pain i feel
from the blood flowing from my skin
from the loud screaming coming from a mother
from a broken heart
but please do not torment me
with my own disturbed mind
for king, i have no control
over that pain at all
and its driving me insane

you have a man
they called it the man of the house
then you have the woman
they named it the housewife
they have kids
two girls and a boy
the boy was older
but people barely see him at home
now that he turned 23
the first girl has issues
always get into trouble
gets more of the attention
of the man and the woman
and then comes the second girl
she has a disturbing mind
everybody thinks she is faking it
when she mention of it
including the man and the woman
because she looks perfectly fine
maybe that's why she was chosen
to play the main character
in her school play
her acting was so convincing

mummy daddy im ill
why wont you send me to the hospital
and let me get the help i need

my eyes are bleeding and i can't find my way home
nothing feels right anymore
i'm not letting them in, i'm not letting them go

i'm following this path that i have no idea where it's leading me to
and what terrifies me is that i'm letting them
to decide what i want and who i am turning into

go go go
don't stay with me
if i ever begged you to
leave me before i destroy you

you don't understand
what you do, even the slightest
kills me to death and i don't understand either

i'm so weak
i'm so fragile
i'm so sensitive
and with just a slight poke with a needle
i'll detonate and let darkness take over me

i can't cope and neither can you
you are kind you are lovely
and i bring no good to you
so leave even if i beg you to stay

they said to let it go
keep wander as the clock ticks
i will know who i am when it’s time to
but it’s been a while now and i am completely lost in the dark
trapped in my own soul with the absence of light
i said i wanted to die every ******* day
but even lord knows i fear death
for i have made sins more than i could ever count
and it has only been the fifteenth year