ALONE

Sometimes I sit alone in utter darkness...
The sun is shining and I see happiness all around me.
I can't share in it, my soul is sad...Distracted.
The light laughter can not penetrate my mood.

I feel like an Eagle that can not fly.
Sad as a sparrow who can not sing.
I run and I run to reach the right path...
and smack into a glass wall that peers into a forest.

It's beautiful and vast...but I can not express my joy...

Jennifer Lynn Clark  2016 (c)

Answer us true
How old are you?
Are you boy or girl?
Close your eyes.
Do you see a fire or a whirl-
wind? How much have you sinned?

Given a choice pick
red or blue?
Given a choice pick none or new?

Picture yourself in the woods.
Do you see a horse or a mare?
A rabbit or a hare?
Is it a half empty or half full barr-
el? Have you ever thought to ****?

Do your dreams end in flight
or fall?
Do you fight when held up
against a wall?
Do you stand up strong and tall?
Or hunch down,
make yourself small?
Do you like your peanuts sal-
ted? Do you like your coffee malted?

Do you fidget when you eat?
Tap to music with your feet?
Is your happiness fleet-
ing when your life has you beat?

Do you gaze directly at the sun?
Shade your love from
coming undone?
Do you largely have fun-
ctional relationships?

And last, not least, has come:
What do you think of your dear mum
and dad? Did they turn you good or bad?

Now we've collated your results.
You're [insert personality type here]
I hope now it's all so clear,
this box in which you fit best.
We've emailed you this score lest
you forget the results
of your Personality Test.

And when I asked
Do you want to be in a relationship with the nice me?
You said nothing.

You kept telling me to stop
With every vehement breath I drew

there's no such thing as 'love'

In the middle of the night
But he's not there
Only my alarm clock
blink, blink

Looking for the arms
He had around me
Just seconds before
blink, blink

But he's not there
And I drift back into unconvinced mourning until the morning.

Dreams never last, do they?

Her silent smile, hides secrets inside.
With the demons lurking in the back of her mind.

And now you’re going..
Your blue eyes leaving a cold shadow on my soul
Realizing that you cannot love me
That you don’t need me.

And the wine will never  taste the same it did before.

And now you’re leaving
Taking with you all the scents I've put in your hair
All the poems I've read to you
All the perfect moons
The ugly, boring Sundays
Your smile
The smoke of cigar coming from your lungs
Your heart
Your voice whispering
“I’ll never leave you”.

We broke silently at night.

        

                         As not to inconvenience anyone