I hoped,
Before the old girl died,
She'd request to meet me
Eyes to eyes,
And apologize.
I never got the call,
And it was getting late
For a death bed confession,
A plea bargain absolution.
I would have blessed her,
Held her hand,
Let her know I understand;
Seeing, as I'm a man.
So, I went to meet her,
Eyes to eyes;
Held her face
And apologized.

july is ticking away
and i feel a little overwhelmed
no, scratch that, i just feel lonely
maybe because it's the second full moon of the month but i have no one to watch it with
not to mention that the clouds chose today of all days to return
it seems like some crept into my brain too
...these swirling thoughts no longer make sense
i think i really need a drink
for the moon is not the only one feeling a little blue tonight

Words purposefully sent
      Will cruelly dangle, stillborn
in this night air
      They are echoes
struggling
                              against a current of denial
      falling short
      among
the corpses of the living
the laughter
Empty Trajectories
                    doomed
              never to be heard,
Just whispered
in the back of my skull.

My heart goes with you my Friends.
I can hardly wait to meet each of you.
To celebrate with you all at the feast.
For imagine the food shall taste so good.
Much better then the way it taste right now.
No more pain nor suffering shall we feel.
Just Love, Peace, Great Joy, and Laughter.
For this I can barely wait till we meet in heaven.
Celebrating with the Lamb, our Awesome God.

choices are for you to make and understand
squeezed into twenty four hours
and if horizons are opening out know you are choosing right
the general path to love, light, and freedom

Tribute to my childhood hero
Joni Mitchell

The album covers beaten
The player old and worn
The needle barely tracking
From all the scratches borne
Upon the vinyl surfaces
Of albums that were stored
Unlocking wonderous worlds
Of music I adored

I would lie in cloistered darkness
To hear a voice so sweet
There I'd usher in the nighttime
To worship at her feet
Struck by earthy lyrics
But somewhat strange
Unearthly tunes
To trace with disconnected fingers
The most sensitive of wounds

How sad that good songs
Unsung heroes
Like "Morning Morgantown"
Wouldn't live forever
To "buy your dreams a dollar down"

Recall "Big Yellow Taxi"?
You can rest assured I do!
And "Ladies of the Canyon"
And her epic album "Blue"
Most folks recall a song
Entitled "Both Sides Now"
'Bout clouds and love and life
But they do not know
Her poetic expression
Unearthed deep jazzy riffs
Elitism. Hypocrisy.
And "Summer Lawns" that "Hissed"

At the pinnacle of greatness
Her album "Court and Spark"
Will always be a touchstone
For purity in art

A deeply troubled woman
At certain times in life
Loving truely... deeply
In the "Industry" meant strife

A versatile genius
Her lyrics resonate
Fot the very thing that scarred her
Also made her great

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At times I'd sit and ponder
A self-inflicted crime
But I would postpone the act
To hear her one last time
Her songs touched me so deeply
Places only she could know
With her voice to guide me
I found a place to go
She became my inspiration
My metaphor. My muse.
Joni Mitchell told my heart
To write of its abuse

I aspire to higher standards
A perfection as it were
And should my work be recognized
I owe it all to her.
Though endlessly I search
For perfect sense of art
It's brought on by

INPERFECTION

But a kind and loving heart.

What I saw in her self portrait
Was a humble, gentle face
She was the greatest mentor

a human life could grace


SoulSurvivor
(C) 10/14/2014
Rewritten
(C) 7/17/2015

Kisses in the Dark

think I'll take a song I'd like to sing
and shower you with the love it brings
I think I'll take a dance step that you know
and turn it into happiness that shows
You know I'd turn a rainy day to blue
If this is what I'd have to do for you
I'd build a mighty castle in the snow
If I thought it would make our own love grow
Your world isn't my world, but you know
My world is for you, I want it so
You just stand there small and powerful
I just fall and tell you all I know
Kisses in the dark they do not tell
Everything there is let's ring the bells
Now I can do everything I've told
Because I love you more today I'm sold
Kisses in the dark they do not tell
Everything there is let's ring the bells