Words,
Are harmful,
and painul,
they infutrate my brain,
haunt me in my sleep,
For I am not a girl,
I am a man,
weather I have genitals of female or male,
I identify as me,
these handprints on the walls spoken of my past,
the past I don't want to think of,
the rain falls,
no more lies,
or crystal *****,
I am me,
here and now,
he, him, his
not
she, her , her's
so forget it,
FORGET WHO I WAS,
I'M NOT HER...
not any more,
she's dead,
not living,
I don't see her in me,
so leave me be...
plase,
words don't hurt,
they cut deep,
make my mind bleed in my sleep.

There is a circle
around my feet
that you never break.

Even when you
hug me
you are so far away
from that border.

But it's not only you
That circle is
always with me

no one can get close
to my heart.

No one will ever understand.

dark pits in which
I sleep

sunny forests
where I run.

oh how vast the sky is
the abundance of stars it contains
all unique in their own special way
but no star will ever be like you
for all those stars are forgotten when i
see you
you, and only. you.