My love
It is my weakness
It is the ammunition
It will furnish the fashion
You will hurt
Your heart will break
To another you should take
The love you have left

The dust settles
Some time has passed
No more questions asked
You now smile with no frown
And your love is not tied down

Now we are free
but there is still pain for me
The pain I have given and the selfish one that I now feel in my solitude
A day to forget the day it was your love I chose to exclude

Fall in love with yourself
again
Like when you were five
When,
          your first crush turned you down
          but you didn't stop singing
          your nursery rhymes
Twinkle, twinkle little star
again

.
Alive as a stone is cold, frozen,
Unmoved as drying statuary -
No blood was running in my veins,
No song was sung behind my brain.

Was I black as rock in wintry shroud?
Was I a phantasm that caught your eye?
My ends were sewn, threaded with hands,
That room, with you, was clothed in dream.

And I slept in a loft that chastened all airs,
I lived in a box which you buried out there,
Out in the hollows of the winds and rains,
I fear I was dead, before we became.

The thought
the thought of you dragging
a blade across your
wrist
it kills me.
The thought
the thought of you
taking your last breath
tears me apart.

you are too young and
beautiful to leave this world
you are too loved
to even think to leave

you remind me of the song
by lana del ray
the one that goes..
"will you still love me when
im no longer young and beautiful?"
yes yes i will

you tell me i am your big sister and
you look up to me
and not to cry because i am
too beauttiful,
now its my turn.

you are beautiful
you are loved. so please
wipe the tear off you
cheek, put the blade
down and come here
i love you
just remember the promises
we made eachother
that one day
we will be able to hold eachother
in our arms and
i can tell you how much
i love you.

because words dont
describe it enough, words cant
express the feelings
going through my body
i love you. x

Lots of people see me
But not everyone can read me
I have so many scars
But no one will believe me
I hide a tear cause i am used to being lonely
I love unconditionaly
But it is easy to hurt me
I am the sun that has been covered by the clouds
I am a wave that washes people clean
And takes in the dirt
I make the earth ever so green
Sometime I help people who I know may stop my dream
I wish everyone you know that I have a white heart
I love to help people more than myself
This led people that I love drift apart
Because they dont understand what I am about
I love to give more than recieve
I never asked someone for anything more than to believe
Believe in the love i have
And i have no plans to harm
Dig into my soul and you will know
That I bow to people I love and adore
I dive my life from head to toe
I want everyone who treat me differently to know
Whatever i have done i didnt mean to make you hurt
I may joke or try to make you smile cause i know what it means to be hurt
I push and I stand by you to prevent you from the worst
Because if i dont I stay in bed full of guilt
I hide an amount of hills that no one knows
Because i believe peoples troubles are more than my own
I get misjudged and thats what hurts
It even made me sink to the dark
Some very close people I lost
Although all i have done is become better than they have already become
Everyone that left me i hope you know
I still love you and leaving me is hurting my soul
Even if we dont talk anymore i want you to know I will still love you forever and more
I apologize if you understood me in a wrong way
This is my way of explaining who I am and what you all are to me
I dont expect you to understand
There is one wish that i may ask just hope you smile to life as life is short and learn to forgive
Because having hurt will make you suffer all day

If i told you i needed help
would you listen?
Or would your silence
Echo off the walls.
See my life is like a car,
Sometimes moving fast
And other times so **** slow.
If i told you i feel hurt inside
would you not just hear
but listen
to what i said
I need someone to care.
Im tired of trying to fight alone.
Im tired of trying to survive at a table for one.
If i told you
I cry all over my body
And each tear is a knife
And they are leaving scars on my flesh,
Would you cut me a bandage,
Sop up my blood,
Or leave me to bleed out.
If i told you
I was alone and my demons are taunting me
would you get me out
Or would you keep walking
or keep scrolling...
Im not begging for attention,
But one cannot be expected to be alone and silent like a life long detention.
If i told you
I was ready to confess everything
Come clean from my secrets,
Strip myself naked so you could see my imperfections
would you care even the slightest bit
Or are you so selfish
And so ignorant
To walk on
And leave this person to die.
If i told you i was ready to die
would you blame it in cliche,
Or believe it and save me from damnation
Its time to think.
It could be up to you
This isnt just my world,
Its yours, too
and dont you want to be
somebody
To someone?
I need you.
Because all of these "if i told you's
Are becoming
**im telling you

If the person you love
Is truly
Holding you up
Then there's no way
You could fall
For someone else

He stood on the grassland of Ledi Geraru.

The sky was a vast expanse of melancholic gray
and the crimson blue light made the night imminent.

Each twilight his feet felt the kiss of the dewy shrub
as he waited for the first star to come out
that in a hushed sweep descended as peace.

He would raise his finger to the sky
and upon the river of his eyes
the star broke into fragments of tears.

He was slowly dying
but a greater him was to tread the grassland.

His eyes weren't found.

Only his jaws still stuck with the beauty
were dug up from the stardust.