I needed to feel something real.
I had to confirm my existence.
So I walked barefoot in the cold.
This pain, never felt so good.

- Depersonalization

Nobody told me
The fear of losing
For loving someone so hard
Was something so harsh

Deeply and undoubtedly
Smiling with tears
With hopes you look at me
Right into my eyes

Wounded and scared
I want your comfort
But you belong to her
To non of my presence

I've should known better
Not to play with fire.
It burns, hurt and scars
So why am i addicted ?

How does it feel?
How does it feel
To be without a home
Like a complete unknown
Like a rolling stone?

I'm sorry if I can't tell you I love you
It's just an effect of what I've been through
I just need to be taught
Loving someone isn't as easy as I thought
Please understand if I want to go slow
It's all new to me so I don't know
I'm not sure how it feels to be loved
Please show me, don't just leave me feeling shunned
My heart is fragile, barely in tact
Please don't break it, it will be the end, that's a fact
Be gentle with me, I'm not very stable
If I'm shown not to trust guys I may no longer be able
Will you hold me while I cry?
And tell me all the reasons not to when I want to die?

I've been battered and broken too many times
To see the life mentioned in sweet rhymes
I can't seem to let go of my past
Maybe that's why love doesn't last.

Love doesn't come naturally to me,
And when it does, it doesn't leave
That's my problem, can't you see?
Everyone I love has turned into an enemy.

My old love sits dormant in my heart,
But the new love won't start.
I've ******* myself over, can't love anymore
I ran from one love straight into a door.

I've been battered and broken too many times,
And now I live between the lines.
I can't seem to let go of my past
Because the love I had was meant to last.

Would you like to see a trick
I hear that you like magic
As the world takes hold our hearts
Watch it disappear with them

Would you like to take a guess
At how it saws our love in half
Can you see the slight of heart
And figure out where it's at

What we had before all that
Was only smoke and mirrors
Where we found nothing left
Once the room had cleared

Just like the rabbit in the hat
Love up and hopped away
What is left with that said
I guess the tricks on you and me

Captivating is the boat sailing across the ocean,
Alluring are the winds blowing from the Sahara,
Amnesiac are the long winter nights in my bed,
Vandalizing are my thoughts and dreams which never came true,

I walk alone and journey across the world,
I fight the thundery and cold storms of the desert,
I cuddle in my bed during the Winters to keep myself from getting cold,
And I cry as none of my hopes may ever come true,

As I walk alone the only thing that accompanies me is my shadow,
The curvy paths of the desert and the runny sand swallow me into their crust,
The blanket that I wear to protect myself acts as a shield,
And my tears that I shed they mend and teach me what its like to be heart broken.

You replaced my heart with a tombstone
Maybe thats why it feels so heavy

I’ve found a love -
A most wretched, horrid love -
That has carved its initials on my skin;
Made its mark
And poisoned the inner parts of my once pure heart.

If only I could bleed,
To drain this vile repository that is the core of me.