Thank you to all the mothers who have gone before.
Whispers from the past,
Echoes reaching into the future.
Wrap your arms around this daughter.
I am still learning not to fall.
Sit down in her shade.
Let the branches of the family tree
Protect and shelter us
Each and every day.

I can only face you with amazing grace
Gracefulness of heart
Heartfelt pleas upon the lines around my eyes
Eye on the goal of ultimate peace
Peace, perfect peacefulness upon the lips that sigh...
Sigh then stop still and in the fullness of time
Time...that waits for blessed moment after moment
Moments that will stand the test
Testing our strength and courage
Courage to face the world with truth
Truth that saves these faces.... soon it will be time
Time to dance, time to grieve, time to serve and time to be....

We gave birth to the whole world.
Therefore have the ultimate power.
If we share our innermost thoughts,
At the most intimate time,
We have the maximum impact.
On this day of all days,
As the universal mother,
We hold the change in our hands.
It's up to each and every one of us.
As we give birth to the next generation,
And as daughters of the last,
It's time to acknowledge but leave the past.
Cut the ties that bind... open the eyes that keep us blind.
Keep the ultimate goal in mind...
We are all part of this human race
We can't keep on saving face.
Blaming each other for our forebears disgrace.
Make this a day to celebrate humanity.
Gather strength from our unity
And give our children the belief in true equality.
We are all equal... surely this is what gives our life it's quality.

CM 8/3/15

Woken up,
Weary bones.
Lump in throat.
Miss you now.
Missed you yesterday.
Miss you more tomorrow.
Head is full,
Full of you.
Heart hurts.
Huge big hole.
Too big to fill,
With anyone but you.

Brush away the pain
Rub out the harsh words
Encircle my body
With your protective arms
Catch the wonderful
Before its lost to the wind.

I am acutely aware
Of my feelings today,
My emotions I wear
On my sleeve.
I want to tear
Them from my skin.
I stop and stare
Into space.
I wasn't prepared
For your rejection.
I'm sorry I care
Too much.
Yes I dare
To dream,
And yes I am acutely aware
Of my feelings today.

Emotional baggage
Left luggage.
Why claim it?
Or name it.
No shame in it.
It's not you, it's me...
No it's not me, it's you...
But then again...
Confusing it's it?
Do you mind?
Mind what you say
Carry on...
Hedge your bets,
I bet she waits
On your every word.
Haven't you heard?
I have a brain
Beneath the exterior.
The interior?
Scratch the surface..
Maybe not..
You have two faces,
The public view
Right in cue
I know you
Better than you do.
The other one...
You've come undone.
Me ? I'm way too strong.
You don't believe in you,
I did ...no doubt.
I dared to care,
Cared but you were scared
Of your own shadow.
Look out the window
I'm looking in
A reflection of me?
Thank you.
Yes ...thank you.
For helping me see.
See right through you.
Every word,
It's all been heard.
Every silence,
Dissolved my resolve.
It's left a wound
Healed with a scab.
Did you realise?
Realise what you had,
In your hands.
Do you understand?
Your choice,
Walk away.
Don't think for a minute
I didn't live it.
I have feelings too...
Off you go, pastures new.
The grass is greener.
It's been emotional...
I never claimed your baggage.
I unpacked mine long ago.
How were you to know
You know what?
You had me at hello.

As you turn and walk away,
Know that you've left a mark...
An indelible mark,
That can never be washed away.
You've turned your back today,
You left your mark at the start.
I knew you from the start,
Knew you'd walk away today.
You had my heart but couldn't stay.
You made me see light not the dark,
Led Me from the dark.
In my heart I knew you wouldn't stay.
I'd just like to say...
You will always be a big part,
Right from the start a really big part.
But couldn't stay...there's nothing more to say.

We would meet on a Friday.
Where?
Under the big clock.
The excitement building all day.
Time slowly ticking, tick tock, tick tock.
A passionate long lingering kiss.
Where?
You know...under the clock.
Oh your wide open arms I miss.
Time slowly ticking, tick tock, tick tock.
We are alone in suspended animation.
Eyes wide transfixed staring.
This moment our own creation.
Time for us alone, each other sharing.
Where?
Same place under the clock.
An amazing all encompassing elation.
Time moves slowly tick tock tick tock.
Hold the hands of time, our fingers entwined.
When?
Someday soon under the clock.
You know you are always on my mind
My heart beats in time with yours tick tock, tick tock.

Rub noses
Wriggle toes
Blush a little
Giggle more
Hold hands
Eyes lock
Look down
Get closer
Blush a little
Giggle more
Fingers touch
Deep breath
Lips touch
Tongue tingles
Heart pounds
Blush a little
Giggle more
First kiss
Any more?

Where is the love, lust and all encompassing passion?
Waves of euphoria replaced by a deep depression.
I thought it was more than just a temporary liaison.
It was mind body and soul, not a forbidden distraction.
A perfect life? Reality bites it was but an illusion.
Right wrong? I don't know,certainty is replaced by confusion.
I am feeling the pull of time...it's my form of regression
I hate these feelings,my pain my only expression.
I am afraid that you have formed the wrong impression.
I don't want you to hate me,I just wanted a decision.
Happiness quickly followed by mistrust and superstition.
What you do feels like a form of oppression.
Thoughts of you conjure up hurt anguish and aggression.
I have done nothing wrong, loving you ...my only confession.
A future? only dreams...never meant to come to fruition.
We could have been happy if we'd only given ourselves permission.
I know it was all in my mind...quite an exquisite delusion.
When all is said and done I have learnt a valuable lesson.
I need to stop this destructive obsession.
We were never meant to be one another's  prize possession.

Am I fine?
He asked.
Why do you ask?
She said,
masking
Her confusion.
Was it an illusion?
She asked.
Were you wearing a mask?
Was it delusion?
You look fine,
And when you didn't
I knew there'd be a time.
I'm fine....
I assumed
I needn't ask,
She said.
I have to ask,
He said....
I feel I am masking,
That's why I'm asking.
I feel fine,
Is my conclusion.
What are you asking?
She said.
Are you masking,
The real reason
You are asking?
Yes
he said.
I was going to ask
In a roundabout way
Would it be ok...
Well I was going to ask
Have we got the time?
Now I'm fine...
He said.
Get on with the task,
And ask....
She said.
Shall I try my luck
Do you fancy a...

Cup of tea?

I looked at it in wonder,
then carefully wrapped it up in tissue
and placed it on a shelf called some other day.
I held it in my hand for a while,
then folded it in brown paper ******* with string
and hid it in a drawer called one day.
I sat and wore it on my face
then boxed it up labelled it with words
and put it to the back of the cupboard called yesterday.
I gave it to you for a time,
then you handed it back with a smile.
Show it to everyone in your world called today.

33 words placed by your amazing tongue,
Melting together one by one.
33 words straight from your core,
Whispered on bare skin I want more.
33 words mixed with your soothing voice,
In each and every syllable I shall rejoice.
33 words dripping down my spine,
Slowly tracing their path until they meet mine.
33 vertebrae waiting for your precious voice...
I can only surrender I have no other choice.

First love.
Blind love.
Arms tied behind my back love.
Eyes bigger than my heart love.
I can see my way through the dark love.
Head up in the clouds love.
Feet high up off the ground love.
Far too young love.
Everlasting love?
Wrapped up in nostalgia love.
Don't go there love.
Leave in the past love.
Why does this hurt my insides love?
Head in the sand love.
Feet back on the ground love.
Second best love.
Finally grown up love.
Blind love.
First love.

Yes
He said
I miss
Your kiss.
I can't dismiss
Your touch,
I miss so much.
My words dancing
On your tongue
He said.
The kiss I miss,
The thoughts
I can't dismiss.
Fizzes in my brain
Do you feel the same?
He said
Yes
she said,
With bated breath.
I miss the kiss
I can't dismiss
Your touch
I miss so much.
Will you
Take your kiss
Place it on my lips
That miss your touch
So much?

I am in lust. I'm hate,I'm love, I'm tangled.
I am amused,confused,bruised.
I am hot,cold,I am untold.
I'm undone,I'm fun,
Coming,going,I'm all knowing.
I hope,love and scar,
My head hurts and my mind is numb.
I'm hurt,jealous,envious.
I smile, laugh and taste.
I scream and dream.
I'm in a hurry, I'm lazy.
My throat hurts, can't talk.
I can't see, just leave me be.
I am disabled, not able.
Leave me in pieces.
I am all of the above and then some.
I'm tired,inspired,I am wired.
I cry ,I lie and try.
I am trying,but most of all I'm crying.
I'm fake,I'm real. It is surreal.
I feel,I don't,I won't.
I talk,I walk,I run.
I stop,I strop, I shout.
I really don't know what this is about.
How do you feel? To me it's real.
I am raw,I'm cut,I need,I bleed.
I give up,I give in,you win.
I fight,I am uptight.
I'm abstract, I react, detract.
I am dramatic,ecstatic, erratic.
.... I am knackered.

My tears  drip on the earth,
the earth that covers your body.
The wind rips the words from my mouth.
I want to hold time in my hands.
Stop,still.
Then turn the clock face.
To another hour,
a different place.
Look into your eyes a little longer,
hold you a little tighter.
Take the pain,
banish the shame.
Read the silences in the lines around your eyes.
Feel the heat,
fear the cold.
Savour the moments of pure joy,
immerse myself in the laughter.
Open my arms,
erase the anger.
I'm better for knowing you.
My only wish...
That you could have stayed a little longer.

Your warm embrace,
your face With it's amazing grace-
fullness of heart.
Right at the start,
from the moment you spoke to me
Your soft caressing words...
I can't explain,
the day our heads became
A force to be reckoned with.
My huge soul with a gaping hole is filled with light.
The truth in your voice,
I have no choice...
To follow in your foot step-
in time to the beat of the blood flowing through your veins.
I can't explain,
the day our hands became
a brain to write with...
My lifeless bones within the skin you wrap around them,
are filled with hope.
The wounds are healing scars from the past.
I breathe out me so I can breathe in you.
I can't explain,
The day our feet became
the beat to push us forward
To light and life I raise a toast to the force that brought us together.
I have no choice
but to hear your voice
Now and forever.

When I look at the photograph of you on your wedding day,
I can see all of us stretched out into the future.
As we lay your bones to rest under the earth you enriched,
Where your feet touched,
where you played as a child,
then Walked hand in hand with your soul mate.
Could you have imagined that photograph standing guard?
Proud and watchful over all of us yet to be born.
This family tree spreading it's branches.
New life now and the past yet to come.
Rest in peace you are not forgotten
by us to be.
Remembered in the feet that walk past your image today.
Did you ever imagine who lay ahead
in the smile on your wedding day?

I can't compete with the demons in your head,
Where fools rush in and angels fear to tread.
Thoughts of me don't reach the sacred heart of your bed.
It's like walking a tightrope on silk thread.
What are you scared of ..losing your mind...is that what you dread?
Now is the time to listen to your heart instead of the voices in your head.

No skin on which to place my lips,
No hands to rest upon your hips,
No legs to walk towards me,
No ear to hear your whispers,
No hair to wind around your hands,
No feet with which to step on your toes ,
No mouth to kiss me on the nose,
No waist to wrap your arms around,
No spine to run my fingers down,
No neck for me to rest my face,
No elbows to brush your thighs,
No face to see my smiling eyes.
But what I have are memories in my head,
Of everything you have ever said.

I didn't make it up
I woke up
You made it better
For better or worse
It really happened
You made me count
You made it all better
I did it with your help
We helped ourselves
Please don't stop
Don't make it stop
To me it's clear
You make it clear
You couldn't write this
Or make it up
You know what
We can make it
Is that clear?

One day when the moon is high,
When all the stars are aligned in the sky,
When you don't have to worry or even try,
You will have the chance to come fly.
Till then, dream of me, smile and sigh.