People tell stories of phantom limbs
pieces of themselves that were lost
were severed
that they can still feel.
They are haunted by what they once had
an itch here
an ache there
ghost sensations as powerful as the real thing.
You are my phantom limb.
You fill the hole in the center of my chest
with a continuous presence
that radiates outwards
in soft gray waves.
I feel your fingers on my stomach
your lips on my cheek
your heat mingling with mine.
Always.
Pleasure mixed with pain.
Because there is pain, yes.
Pain of remembrance
pain of what I left behind
pain of what I must wait to regain.
But there is so much more than that.
A which sort of beauty,
my little ghost heart.
And while there are those
who reject the invisible part of themselves
I relish it.
My constant reminder
that you were once in my arms
that we truly have touched
that this love has an origin.

Take my heart
Fold it in half
Fold it again
Tear it into five different pieces
Burn one piece
Crush the second
Shatter the third
The fourth dissolves into nothing
And the fifth is thrown away.

Take my soul
Fill it with hopes
Fill it with dreams
and promises
Expose it to joy
and happiness
Bring it to life
with your beauty
and then,
just as you welcome it,
abandon it to be engulfed
by sheer darkness.

What happens after that?
I don't know,
But you've left me to figure it out.

People think I’m poetic
They see me as a troubled soul
Who bleeds ink
From torn up veins
Metaphors painted on endless pages
Dripping from my lips
People think I’m poetic
But I’m just a ****** up kid
With a large vocabulary