I could never forget it.
That night that we ended this.
This thing I called amazing.
Why did you leave me?

Up till today,
It never made sense to me.
We blame it on my parents,
On religion,
Things we couldn't grasp,
Issues that an end could never reach.
Was it really that?
Or were you just tired of me?
  
Now I see you moving on,
Speaking to girls,
The kinds I will never be.
I hope you're finally happy.

"I'm falling for you,"
He whispered to my ears.
My heart skipped a beat.
What is this that I'm feeling.
Was this how moving on is supposed to be?
why couldn't I shake off these feelings of wary?

"Why?" I asked.
He sighed,
"Its the way you love life,
The way we say goodbye each night,
You don't see it,
But this possibility of us,
Sends me sky high."    

My father always warned me,
If he was the right one,
And he was for real,
He'll be willing to wait for me,
So just friends for now,
Is what we have to be.

I write about love,
I write about my mother,
I write about the early years,
The flowers and the valentines,
I write about your smile,
Pretend it is something heaven sent,
That your skin held all my secrets,
and that we asked for nothing in return,
I write if nothing to be honest,
For my pen holds every truth I know,
Remember this when you choose to forget,
For I do not know how

Let my thoughts flow onto this paper. The pen is my surgical knife, the ink is my blood. I put everything i have into every letter and word this is my true love.

These lines on this paper are my addiction i cant stop at just one. Every exclamation point is like an earthquake or someone screaming in your face!

Every question mark is like turning down a one way road and ending up in the wrong place. Some sentences are written in code. Just leave me with this pen and paper and let me get in my zone..

I remember the first day I saw you,
This was just a year ago,
I remember it oh so clearly.

I couldn't sleep the night before,
Finally,
We were in the same place.
Under the same sky.

I told my friends the next morning,
"Gosh, I've never sweated this much."
They giggled,
and thought I was kidding,
But I did not lie.

I stared into the distance,
There you were.
Wow, I thought.
You were real.
Gone, were our laptops.
The sight of you behind the screens.
And the ambience of our lowly lit rooms.
You were just within arms reach.

I hid behind my friends,
As we walked in a line.
"Shh, stay down," they whispered as we got closer.
I giggled, my head feeling light,
Is this how falling in love felt like?

Your jaw dropped as you saw me,
I felt like a little girl as you came running towards me,
Took me in your arms and spun me,
"I thought you were at your friends for the weekend!
How did I not see this coming?!"

This bittersweet memory just broke me,
A year later none of us saw this separation coming.

Someone asked me,
What ever did I see in him,
"He broke your heart,
Left you in two.
He has probably moved on by now,
It's time to focus on you."

I thought to myself,
"Well it's the way his eyes light up when I turn on the screen,
Or the way he sings me to sleep,
As the night pass,
And dawn comes on.

None of you could ever see it,
But I knew deep down,
Somewhere in there,
He did love me.
I don't need to prove it."

You used to be my muse,
For my masterpiece,
Now you're the sweet broken tune,
I sing,
as I fall asleep.