Cara May

Mar 2017

Shah Ahmed Farouq

Emotions

I am suppose to be happy
But in the middle of the night
I can't remember the tears
How much I've cried
Sometimes I do feel like leaving
This vessel which I call my body
Let my soul be free from its bonds
To leave this world where I don't belong

Sometimes we give ourselves in to darkness

#overthinking

Mar 2017

cait

nature

first nature is sadness and
second nature is you.
once the second nature dies
the first nature returns.
primary being.
where I am sad.

you came as a habit that stuck
you left like a part of me being ripped away
return second nature
come back

please?

how am I supposed to live without you?

#love #first #sad #girl #nature #second

Cara May Mar 2017

GIVE ME A BREAK

i'm giddy
because of the oxygen
and the thoughts
I'm lost and i'm alone
crying and screaming to the sky
asking when will my time come
to not be alone in this forest of despair.
I'm just a human
and the person that I cared,
pushed me away
and one reaction
produce another chain reactions.
I'm so tired, my tears are almost blood
of being alone, crying alone,
bottling my emotions and feelings
OH GOD PLEASE,
GIVE ME A BREAK.

Cara May Mar 2017

Butterfly's Wings

The velvet part of me
is my enemy.
My tears are inexpensive;
I cried at littlest things.
I cried listening to slow songs
I cried watching indie movies,
sometimes cartoon.
I too cried reading novels
and
I cried when people left.
I wish I wasn't fragile
as butterfly's wings.
I wish I don't stay on the ground; to not feel too much
but high on the cloud nine; to feel less.

Mar 2017

Rae

The Snow Is Deep

My head spun and
I couldn't see the
lines between
a potential problem or
dread.
I swore
I could plow on.
And suddenly,
there was a quiet moment
and it would make me realize that
the worst thing that can happen
can happen.

it did.

#sad #dark #dread #deep #worst #problem #thing

Cara May Mar 2017

My Writer's Block

My mind is clogged
and my hand is locked
by the thoughts of wanting to be pretty.
I can't pour anything else on the paper
but the words of misery
and bleeding heart,
pleading for beauty.
I'm sitting for weeks
and all I could write on the papers are
I wanted to be pretty.

I'm having writer's block at the moment.

#depressed

Cara May Feb 2017

When you loved someone

When you loved someone
it feels like you're laying down
on a lavender field
gazing at the stars;
thousands of them
everyday.

When you loved someone
it feels like the wind
and the sun are unison;
just enough to caress
your delicate skins
and make you feel warm inside.

When you loved someone
it feels like you're venturing
into the wilderness
at the back of your hometown's house;
treacherous but exhilarating.

When you loved someone
it feels like you're dancing
to your favourite songs
in the rain
and the thunder is rumbling;
fearsome but thrilling.

The feeling you have when you loved someone.