And she sees him shaking and tries to push it out of her mind
So she kisses and touches his neck because that's all she knows how to do.

Not once did I ever convince myself
that I was good enough for you

And i think you wanted me to
Wild, sleepless,unbreakable me
To kiss you so hard that all our problems vanished
But I couldn't because you were leaving
I couldn't look at you tonight
Because I was living in a certain moment that I knew i would never experience again
A moment just before we collide
The space before we close in
I love that more than what follows through
More than how you kiss me so hard it leaves bruises
More than my name leaving your trembling lips like you can't help it
Like it hurts
That moment is held with you wanting me
Not in a frantic way that makes us stumble to a bathroom stall
But in the purest form of the word
Want in a way where it feels as if you're not in control anymore
And I couldn't look at you
Because your eyes are enough to break me
And I ignore your phone calls
because last time was the last time
And I'm still holding my promise to keep your secrets
I always will
Even the ones you keep from yourself

And it wasn't romantic
It wasn't even affectionate
It was incredibly excruciating
Nothing was okay
And needing someone to make it okay
Is not endearing
Because there is a difference
Between love and needing someone

We were short lived
But ******* we were beautiful

And the worst isn't the yelling
Or the arguing
Hell, it isn't even the tears
The worst is knowing
That I slip from your mind
Easier than I would have been able to a couple months ago