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Feb 2017 Bo

Arlo Disarray

I've been sitting in the sky,
and watching as the world stops
A rock in the night reflects a light from the day old sunshine
And I laugh because I know none of this is real

My tongue is dried out from too many late-night conversations with myself
Contemplating what my next move on the chess board will be
Knowing I'm bound to lose either way
But refusing to give up until the last turn is played

My brain has wilted and withered
from overuse and constant abuse
From all the times I've wrung it out to dry
Squeezing every last drop
Every last thought out
And now I'm hollow
I'm empty
There's nothing left to find
I'm a shell of a person
with a mask on my mind

The days seem shorter even though I never sleep
I dream while I'm awake
And I forget sometimes that reality exists

I've lived several different lives
None of them were for me
I've worn a dozen faces to please my past
And I feel like I never really got the chance to know me

I've been worn down
and ground up into dust
By a thousand unkind words
and ***** looks
Never knowing which direction I should walk in
And worrying about whose feet I might step on to get there

I never wanted to be the bad guy
I always thought I'd be standing in the light
But I've been pushed aside and stripped of my color
And now I'm afraid to come back out of the shadows

#love #depression #lonely #pain #anxiety

Feb 2017 Bo

Food is toxic love.

Feb 2017 Bo

Mims

Food is toxic love.

I don't like being alone.
Rays of kitchen light,
Beaming down on lime flavored tortilla chips,
With mild salsa,
That's still,
Too hot!

Or cheap tea,
Flavored with lemon and crystalizing honey,

I do not like being alone,
Stacking,
Molasses cookies,
On my shaky finger tips,

I do not like being alone!
Shaky, shaky,
Three,
Round plates,
Stacked on top of one another,
And I'm not saying I have a standard,
eating disorder,
But when I am depressed,
And,
Alone,
I just,
Don't,
Get,
FULL.

No I don't think I'm fat,
I love my body,
And I'm not over weight,

But my stomach,
Is the new home,
To the black hole in my mind,
It's fine,
I say,

You don't know how many plates today,

And it's not every day,

But I find myself stealing snacks,
The way people steal kisses,

Enjoying meals hot or cold,
Instead of going in the snow,

For if i lept into turning waters,
Like people leap for love,

Or if my mind,
Got that black back,
Transferred from my stomach,
You,
Wouldn't be the only thing crushing.

The best is the last bit.

#sad #depression #lonely #eating #disorder #alone #mental #issues #disorders #problems

Feb 2017 Bo

Alone isn't lonely

Feb 2017 Bo

Jaclyn Harlamert

Alone isn't lonely

I dont talk about the past
There is no point
Life is happening really fast
Where's the joint?

Live it while its here,
There is nothing to fear
Why not shed a tear?
You never know when end is near

Observation is the key
No one cares about you or me
There's pleasure in the pain
There's dancing in the rain
Silence is louder than words
It can help you hear the birds

So, alone isn't lonely
Its the least of what she's shown me

Free is the ultimate
I'm pretty sure I'm far from it

My hear will grow wings
And fly far away
The true bands will sing
Or will I stay?

HAPPY SINGLES AWARENESS DAY

#lonely #alone #isnt

Feb 2017 Bo

Orbit

Feb 2017 Bo

Val

Orbit

Throwing stones to the stormy seas,

coming up tides from face to face.

I'm Hiding beneath the dam,

in orbit running round and round.

Just waiting 'til the tears subsides,

Now Sailing under someone's eyes.

If I could only turn back time,

there'll be no more cold under my spine.

#broken #sad #lonely #cant #on #hearted #move

Feb 2017 Bo

Visitorn

Feb 2017 Bo

Val

Visitorn

My walls is broken
and then you came
and broke me too,
for years it's wrecked,
for years I'm weak,
why do you have to come and go?

#sad #lonely #brokenhearted #hanging

Feb 2017 Bo

Recurring

Feb 2017 Bo

Jasmine

Recurring

When the day winds down to a rolling end
My room becomes a cave again
The walls fall down, and twist and bend
My bones will break and never mend