There are many things I know for sure
Like the colour of your eyes.
How you look when you’re asleep,
And the way you kiss goodbyes.

I know your birthday, know your likes,
I know your biggest fears.
I know what makes you smile and laugh,
And what drives you to tears.

I know your lifelong passions
And know all of your regrets.
I know your fondest memories,
And those you’d rather forget.

But one thing I don’t understand,
And may never really know:
Is why you chose me to love,
And why you never go

The first time that I fell in love
The sky was crisp and blue.
Such a cloudless day it was
When I first got to know you.

I fell in love further when
The moon lit up the skies.
I knew you were the one for me
When I looked into your eyes.

And when I fell in love for sure
The sky - to me -
Was you
You were the endless blue of sky,
Of sea, and of earth too.

Then when you went away you took
My sun, my stars, my guiding light;
You left me in the dark, alone:
In the eternal night.

Tears for you will not be shed,
Thoughts of you are buried and dead,
For there is another that you call your own,
While I, envy-wrought, stand alone.

My heart, to you, will now be closed,
And feelings no longer will be exposed,
For now another holds your adoration,
While I, unsuccessful, suppress frustration.

If this were a contest, the victor you'd be,
And I clearly beaten, by you and by she,
But life is no game, as I've sorely found,
And by your emotions and past you are bound.

Though I must admit, upon my discovery
Of your new flame, there was no recovery
For my heart; it had shattered already,
But I pulled myself up, and with voice unsteady,
Swore to remove you from my life and my mind.
It's done. Behind. To you I am blind.

In my life I've felt two kinds of love:
The impatient, nagging burning
And the patient, gentle peace.
The former keeps you up at night
The latter helps you sleep.

There's the one that keeps you wanting
Where you're never satisfied.
The ache that can never be filled,
That makes you feel alive.

Then there's the calm and placid love
That makes you feel secure.
It gives you all you need and want
So you need never ask for more.

The first love can't be tamed
No matter how hard you try.
It's the love that makes you scream and shout
The love that makes you cry.

It drives you crazy with desire
It fuels your passion and drugs your mind.
It makes you high
It makes you blind.

The last love keeps you warm and safe
It holds you close at night
This love keeps you happy
And it feels sure and right.

It fills you with confidence and support
And it gives you room to grow.
You know it will always be there
No matter where you go.

The first love is unstable
It's dangerous and exciting.
The second is mature
It's healing and inviting.

While both loves are important;
They are key parts of your story,
Neither is better than the other;
There is not one reigning glory.
But one thing is for certain
When all is said and done,
Is that of the two loves I know
One remains and one is gone.

Swollen eyes, dark and deep,
Hollow pits from lack of sleep.
Rolling down her porcelain cheek,
A single tear, helpless and meek.
Downturned lips kept tightly shut,
Holding back thoughts and words that cut.

Bitten nails wrapped into fists,
Battle wounds curve round her wrists,
Hate and shame across her skin,
She learnt to hide it, she learnt to fit in.
Insecurities lurk beneath tattered clothes,
A world of secrets that no one knows.

The looking glass shows her broken, afraid,
And to herself this is how she’s portrayed,
But to lens and to eye this girl cannot be seen,
To the world she appears as any other teen.
Surrounded by friends she laughs loud and smiles wide,
So no one will know the pain she suffers inside.

I'm sorry for all the fights I started,
About things so trivial and small.
My need to be right was so consuming,
But I never meant to hurt you at all.

I'm sorry for all the jealousy
That was never justified.
I trusted you and your loyalty,
But insecurities did preside.

I'm sorry for telling you what to do,
For taking control within your life.
I just wanted us to be happy and perfect,
I didn't want to cause you strife.

I'm sorry for being so stressed all the time,
And for taking it out on you.
For all of the snapping and many bad moods,
You were never at fault, it's true.

I'm sorry for all the harsh things I said,
When we fought and when I was sad.
So afraid of seeming weak so I snapped;
I went too far, but always felt bad.

I'm sorry for loving you so so much,
That my heart ruled over my head.
I was crazy and stupid when emotions ran high,
It's no wonder why you fled.

So I thank you for all you've done for me,
And all the things that you have not.
From you I've learnt to improve myself,
And appreciate what I've got.

Let's get drunk together again,
Let's lose our minds and go insane,
With our words revisit the past,
Let's make something that will last.

Let's drink wine and stay up late,
Talk of love and banish hate,
Let us drink until it's hazy,
Let's, for once, do something crazy.

Let's do shots and take off clothes,
Touch and kiss until time slows,
Let's rewind to the good old days,
With our hearts and souls ablaze.

Let's drink until we fall asleep,
And let us laugh until we weep,
Baring secrets, regrets, and dreams,
No longer on warring teams.

But in the morning when we wake,
Nauseous, tired, and with headache,
Will things continue as the night before,
Or will you break my heart once more?