god i want you

They say you went peacefully
And I keep thinking
That you wouldn't have
Ended your life
If you had
Even the smallest bit of peace

I miss you so much sometimes
I feel like I can't breathe

And I don't have all the answers
But I know that people die
Long before they stop being alive
Some of us are just
Going through the motions
Some of us are still breathing
But that's all we do

I miss you so much sometimes
I feel like I don't want to breathe

I was at the edge of the cliff
Ready to jump
I looked at you
Hoping you'd try to stop me
You looked at me and sighed
Because you were tired
Of trying to help me
By the time you took a single step forward
I was already plummeting
Towards the ground.

Everytime I told you I was going to commit suicide I didn't end up doing it.
This time I did and you didn't help
Goodbye.

Razors are pain
Rivers are damp
Acids stain you
And drugs cause cramp
Guns aren't lawful
Nooses give
Gas smells awful
You might as well live

what are doing here
you said that you would stay
then right after you said that
you ran away

to another girl, another chick
who’s skinnier than me
i should of know
that you would would up and leave

do you really think i’d take you back
after that
after running after girls
who like how you act

all smooth and confident
but they don’t know how it be
they don’t know that in no time
you’ll have other girls in your sheets

you broke my heart
split it in two
but at least you know
i’ll never forget you

i wish
i could forget
your zodiac sign
so i wouldn’t have
to read yours
after i read mine.

I have to have time
to grind

myself into
poetry

where everything
is beautiful

even a
raven


Copyright@2018 Dennis Willis