Just once*
I would like to swim in the ocean
without every ******* wave
trying to knock me down.


↠mndi➣

Why do you crucify me
with sharpened words, as if somehow
your strength relies
on my weakness?

Nowadays, I feel less like lover
and more like sacrificial lamb
and though it's a role I've embraced
my eyes, are dampened daily with tears
that hold no miracle or favor

if I could, I would pull myself down from this cross  
but you drove the nails in too deep this time, and I
only have just enough strength
to turn this water into wine

I begged you to just hold on, hoping
things would get better with time, and that
we would build a shelter together, but

you couldn't, and
I understand why
but don't fault me because
I can't be your savior

*I would save you, if I could

I fell for a boy once, with strong and protective arms, with worn off knuckles from oh so many fights, with a cold exterior and a tough glance.
I fell for his eyes, the color of the night, and how he looked at me through them, as if I was a star lighting the darkness.
And I fell for his empty promises of a long lasting future, for you said all I could ever hope hearing.
I had to wake up quickly and landed head first on the ground, I would have never imagined your leaving would be so hard.
Now I'm left here all alone, wondering how I could grow so attached in a month and make the mistake once again, to make a guy my whole world.