Alexia: Favorites

Mar 2015 Alexia

DC raw love

1.  Being busy does not equal being productive.
2.  Great success is often proceeded by failure.
3.  Fear is the #1 source of regret
4.  Your self worth must come from within.
5.  Your only as good as those you associate with.
6.  Life is short.
7.  You don't have to wait for ans apology to forgive.
8.  You are living the life you created.
9.  Live in the moment.
!0. Change is inevitable - embrace it.

Don't take life for granted!

Feb 2015 Alexia

Dissociative

Feb 2015 Alexia

DC raw love

Dissociative

like a empty sea shell
she was so beautiful

looking down on herself
not understanding her ways

always putting herself down
then crying trying to understand why
and then not knows why she cries

while three always discuss
directing her final decisions

split personalities
fight daily
love daily
hurt daily

she can never figure things out
yet hold a relationship

but how gorgeous she is

how unhappy she is
how vibrant she is
how lonely she is

one wants to fight
one wants to stay
one wants to leave

never knowing
what she will do next

she hides from everyone
yet she is never alone

It is now acknowledged that these dissociated states are not fully mature personalities, but rather they represent a disjointed sense of identity. With the amnesia typically associated with dissociative identity disorder, different identity states remember different aspects of autobiographical information. There is usually a "host" personality within the individual, who identifies with the person's real name. Ironically, the host personality is usually unaware of the presence of other personalities.

Feb 2015 Alexia

tap to snooze

Feb 2015 Alexia

rantipole

tap to snooze

my eyes open, sullenly.
not a movement from
my body,
but that of my left arm,
reaching out for
that awful device
that forces me
to comprehend
a drab reality.

tap to snooze

waking up from a dream
where every day isn’t
the same monotony,
and every class isn’t
the same anesthesia,
and every moment
isn’t enveloped
in the pain
of missing you.

tap to snooze

i lay here hoping
begging, even,
that this burden
of waking life will cease,
and that one day
i will cross over
to the sleep realm
and never again
will i need to
*tap to snooze

#dream #life #pain #sleep #reality #her #school #monotony #sullen

Feb 2015 Alexia

Reserved

Feb 2015 Alexia

i am miss brightside

Reserved

My heart...
The only
Space
That
Is
Not
For
Rent.

For someone who already occupied my heart. And forever occupies it.

Do not involved your heart for short-term relationships.

#marriage #long #reserved #term #non-tenant

Feb 2015 Alexia

tsunami tides

Feb 2015 Alexia

Miriam

tsunami tides

you know when you miss someone so much
it’s like tsunami tides washing over you
and it almost hurts to breathe
you just stand there, not knowing what to do
overcome with emotions that makes you think of days long gone
and people that have walked away from you.

i didn’t expect you to be gone so soon—
i feel like our conversation is still hanging in the air
just waiting to be continued

i still have so many things to say to you
but i guess they’re going to have to be
left unsaid, forever stuck in my throat

sometimes i sit here with my heartache
raging quietly inside of myself
and i don’t know what to do with my hands
my chest feels tight
and i feel like i am drowning

i want this feeling to stop now but i know it’s going to take a while
so i just sit here and try to repress it
because i don’t want to let it overcome me.

your goodbye took me by surprise
and left a bitter taste in my mouth;
i guess i should’ve seen it coming
i just wasn’t brave enough to

#love #heartbreak #sad #depression #life #pain #you #unrequited #heartache

Feb 2015 Alexia

a rambling of sorts

Feb 2015 Alexia

Miriam

a rambling of sorts

monsters exist
but only in my head
smetimes they appear in my dreams
but the scenes last only a split second

i've been drinking too much caffeine
and driving myself a little insane;
i've been listening to sad records and wishing in vain,

and i've been trying, trying, trying
but all i've done is cry
and i've been doing my best fixing up holes in my soul
but still my passions leak - out they go and disappear

it's been a strange year

Rilke said you go through important changes while you're sad
i hope so, i hope he's right
because i've been sad for a long time
and i'm starting to think this isn't worth it

if someone loves me, won't they tell me?
won't you tell me before i shut off completely?

Feb 2015 Alexia

you were like a panic attack coming on

Feb 2015 Alexia

Miriam

you were like a panic attack coming on

i got the feeling
i was losing control
felt like i drank
too much wine
or had too much caffeine
in my bloodstream

the walls felt like
they were crashing
down all around me
there was too much air
but i couldn't breathe

you were like
a panic attack
coming on

i hated
every
minute
of it.