A sea of love,
Hard to find, yet refreshing as the sea of tranquility,
Love blooms on the water's surface, filled with joyful tears,
A moist mare of serenity, coming with the open eye of the heart, to embrace what it holds so dear, sincere, pure and precious,
Free of the cold, the warm water tugs its beloved into the deepness of the ocean, causing them to become lost in this sensational emotion,
Alike a holy place, the sky above is compareable to a sea where clouds inhabit; fluffy and comfortable, made in heaven,
But beware; beware of the mare of storms, the fight to the finish only the ocean of crisis has followed, patience has proven to be the key,
Sometimes, all it takes is an closed eye of love to witness the beauty of this world, beyond measure, may a sea expand in their hearts,
So that they may understand, that even the dark side beholds light,
So that it can be easier to coexist in peace, harmony and serenity,
Free from all what is bad, except the pure fury and hate against the worst of all deeds and of what follows them in this regard,
Maybe then, humans would understand; living is very beautiful


~ Umi

God has a man for you, not a boy This idea is that you need to grow a man who is still his first, is misguided. Yes you can be the source of inspiration and motivation. Yes you can be loving and supportive Yes you can pour in in ways that contribute to his growth. HOWEVER! all of them can be done while you are his friend! Like real friends, not like the actress God did not call you to be in a relationship with a boy who has yet to become a man. You run a lot of risks trying to be in a relationship with a man's "potential". In most cases you will find yourself a huge investment of time and energy, only to end up feeling cheated by the lack of return on your investment. While you think you're building him up, you're really making things You're providing all of these benefits. Not only is he qualified at the moment, but he is not putting him in the extra work, yet he can not ask for him. Do you really think this will push him to higher levels, or do yotu see how someone can easily become content and in this situation in the atheist? Forget him for a second, let's talk about you. While you're too busy trying to "build a man" You 're so consumed by this guy, that you have forgotten about the things you want to focus on in your life. You may be a great woman, but there is still work for you It's not your responsibility to make a boy in a man, unless that boy is your own child. You were not allowed to be someone's crutch, you could have been a man's partner and helper. This brings me to the next thing you should know. . .

It took me seven years
to realise
the words in my mind
were too deep for
my mouth to dig up
I thought it was easier
to open my skin
and let the truth
pour down my arms

It took me seven years
to realise
nobody should be allowed
to touch parts
of your home
or hold pieces  
of your heart
that you don't yet understand

It took me seven years
to realise
I will wear these scars
forever
I'll carry them
through every smile
every kiss
every concerned gaze
I'll carry them
to my grave

It took me seven years
to realise
the pain carved
into the walls
of my castle
etchings of
attempting to disappear
are not a story of weakness
but a tale of
how I survived

dil chahta hai choom loo surkh labon ko tere,
bhar lu tumhe umra bhar k liye bahon me meri,
ji loo jindagi bhar tumhe apna bana kar,
bas koi aur parchayi tere siva kareeb kabhi aaye na mere,
jalta hu agar yaad me mai har ghadi,
chahta hu k ek waqt aisa aaye,
k yaaden nahi bas tu hi mujhme thahar jaye,
dekh loo tumhe ji bhar k,
aur choom loo surkh labon ko tere.....
bahut majboor ** gaya hu is judai k silsile se,
ab rasta koi aur dikhta nahi mujhko,
mai chahta hu k simat jaun tujhme,
aur so jaun hardam k liye gesuon ki chaon me tere,
kareeb aakar har pal sanjha kar loo tumse,
tum hardam k liye kareeb aa jao mere,
aur choom loo surkh labon ko tere......
ab kaise kategi jindagi ye meri,
isliye karta hu har pal intjaar tera,
bas yaad karta hu har vo lamha jo sath bitaya tere,
bechain ** jata hu kai baar,
jab sochta hu k koi aur kareeb hai tere,
ab dushman lagti hai duniya sari,
kaise jiyunga mai bin tere,
kareeb aa jao hardam k liye,
dil chahta hai choom loo surkh labon ko tere....

bewafa agar wo hote to unse shikayat mai kar leta,
pyar to aaj bhi unse hi karta hu,
tab shayad shikwa bhi kar leta,
na wo bewafa hai na mai shikayat kar sakta hu,
vo to bas door hai mujhse,
tab shayad khud ko unse door kar leta,
bewafa agar vo hote to unse shikayat mai kar leta....
yun to kai baar vo muhse rooth jaya karte hai,
tab shayad mai khud hi unse rooth jata,
ab vo yaad bahut aate hai,
tab shayad unhe bhool jane ki koshish mai kar leta,
yaad me unki ab bhi aansoo bahata hu mai,
tab shayad unhe yad na aane k gam me ro leta,
bewafa agar vo hote to unse shikayat mai kar leta....
baarish jab hoti aur vo sath nahi hote,
to akela hi us barish me bheeg leta,
tanha hu mai aaj bhi unk bina,
tab shayad unhe kareeb lane ki koshish na kar pata,
ab to bas jindagi beet rahi hai  unk aane ki ummeed k sahare,
shayad tab khud ko mita diya hota,
bewafa agar vo hote to unse shikayat mai kar leta.

hai mujhse khafa kyun mera khuda,
kyun mujhse jhagadna chod diya,
hai ab to bas  intjaar us pal ka,
kab fir se chahakna unka sun paunga,
meri choti choti baton par,
kab unka khilkhilana sun paunga,
kyun meri shikayat hai lagti buri,
k fir shikayat karne ka mauka hi cheen liya......
hai mujhse khafa kyun mera khuda,
kyun mujhse jhagadna chod diya,
yun tanha chod k mujhko gaya,
kyun hak mujhpe jatana chod diya,
ab kaise karu mai unko khabar,
k unk bina na ji paunga,
agar aaye na vo vapas jaldi,
mai duniya chod chala jaunga,
hai ab bhi waqt vaapas aa jao,
kahin khabar na mile kisi aur se,
k  yaaad me unki maine saanse bharna chod diya....
hai mujhse khafa kyun mera khuda,
kyun mujhse jhagadna chod diya,
teri khushboo me jo madhoshi hai,
kyun mujhko juda hai usse kiya,
bas aur nahi takat mujhme,
maine khud ko samajhna chod diya,
na jaao mujhe yun ghayal kark,
aankhen bhi sath nahi deti,
aa jao mere pas sanam,
aab ashkon ne b bahna chod diya,
hai mujhse khafa kyun mera khuda,
kyun mujhse jhagadna chod diya.......