NLB - Hello Poetry

NLB Jun 2014

i wish i could tear out my eyes,
give them to you,
so you could see what i see,
the world i'm sometimes unwillingly sent to.

everything here is scary,
everything here is darker,
everything here is duller,
everything here is bad.

i don't like the feelings i get when i come here,
i'm so far away,
but at the same time i'm trapped,
everything is closing in on me.

*n.l.b

#depression #dark #bad #help #trapped #panic #scary

Jun 2014

nichole r

what I will miss.

but I will miss
writing
in the afterlife.

it was the only way
I could slice open my veins
and bleed out my words
without making a mess.

#dead #writing #afterlife #gone #miss

NLB Jun 2014

one step forward two steps back

every time that i pick myself up,
even if it's only slightly,
someone is always there to
knock
me
down
again.

*n.l.b

#depression #anger #hate #anxiety #people #paranoia

Jun 2014

evjs

nobody cares

they won't care
until you're hanging from the rope you knotted yourself
they won't care
until you're choking on the handful pills you swallowed
they won't care
until you've put the gun in your mouth and pulled the trigger
they won't care
until you've cut so deep the blood is pouring from your wrist
they won't care
until they have to clean up the mess you left behind

nobody cares until you take your last breath
nobody cares until you are six feet under

*/evjs

NLB Jun 2014

let me escape

it's not like i ask for much,
all i ask for is happiness,
plain and simple.

if i can't have happiness then i'll have distraction,
from all the bad stuff,
a way of coping.

and when i'm as far away from everything as i can possibly be,
distracting myself,
don't bring me back,
don't disturb me,
or i will get angry,
very angry.

and i'm afraid i won't stop smashing things until everything is destroyed,
like me.

*n.l.b

#depression #anger #pain #distraction