Time continues

Nothing changes

She makes me feel out of body
Somewhere else but somewhere lovely
So many times I wish I stayed
But everytime I walk away
Don’t know why I act these ways
Just another ruined day
But every time I look and see
Somebody else is taunting me
It’s not me my intentions are pure
But it’s my ego and I can’t ignore
Everything I’ve been raised to be
Has brought me to this mistake
Selfish, controlling, psychotic
I just don’t know if I can’t handle it myself
I need someone here to help me out
But everyone’s been pushed away
Day is gloomy, dark, not gay
Just do not know what to say

I need to go.
I need closure.
I need someone new.
I need her to take me back.
I can't go back.
I can't keep living like this.
I can't control it.
I can't understand why it was me.
Why did I try?
Why did I love so hard?
Why do I deserve this?
Why is it over?

I won't let this build up inside of me.

All I've been trying to do is get closer

All you've been trying to do is get farther

They say opposites attract but in reality they absolutely do not

No emotion means
No worries.
No problems.  

Where do I sign up?

I've become so sick
Of being walked on.
I was once told vulnerability
Isn't weakness.
But now I'm trying to figure out
Why am I so weak?

You'll see your fault eventually
maybe a year
maybe an hour
but all you see for now
is a missed call at **6:50

i feel a pain called depression, not sadness.

with sadness you feel as though something will help you get past the emotion.
You feel like you need to purge your mind of this feeling

with depression you know nothing can pull from its invasive magnetism.
nothing will ever save your mind as it eats itself away.
with depression *you feel nothing