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Alex Rubio Jun 2015
i feel a pain called depression, not sadness.

with sadness you feel as though something will help you get past the emotion.
You feel like you need to purge your mind of this feeling

with depression you know nothing can pull from its invasive magnetism.
nothing will ever save your mind as it eats itself away.
with depression *you feel nothing
Alex Rubio Mar 2016
I was happy who I was
Arrogant, but still confident.
don't dwell upon the past.
Alex Rubio Jun 2015
People don't change.
They never will.
once in awhile I forget this
.
But then I remember as my heart is torn from inside of me
Alex Rubio Apr 2020
Time continues

Nothing changes
Smol
Alex Rubio Dec 2015
Her almond eyes
pull me
closer.
This love
Is *unique
Alex Rubio Nov 2015
You'll see your fault eventually
maybe a year
maybe an hour
but all you see for now
is a missed call at **6:50
Alex Rubio Jun 2015
Madness isn't obtained overnight,
It creeps into your mind as you slip into insanity
Truly, everyone is psychotic. its the reasoning for their mentality that makes them so
but when your mind is exposed to the horrors of reality, you lose reasoning for being "psychotic"
thoughts fade away and sanity soon follows.
a human body, filled with blood and flesh has never appeared so hollow.
what is impossible to see is that taking place of your thoughts and sanity is **madness
Alex Rubio Dec 2017
She makes me feel out of body
Somewhere else but somewhere lovely
So many times I wish I stayed
But everytime I walk away
Don’t know why I act these ways
Just another ruined day
But every time I look and see
Somebody else is taunting me
It’s not me my intentions are pure
But it’s my ego and I can’t ignore
Everything I’ve been raised to be
Has brought me to this mistake
Selfish, controlling, psychotic
I just don’t know if I can’t handle it myself
I need someone here to help me out
But everyone’s been pushed away
Day is gloomy, dark, not gay
Just do not know what to say
Alex Rubio Jun 2015
The desire to be perfect
is the one thing
that puts people even further
than from where they started.

*perfection is simply unachievable.
Alex Rubio May 2016
All I've been trying to do is get closer

All you've been trying to do is get farther

They say opposites attract but in reality they absolutely do not
Alex Rubio May 2016
I need to go.
I need closure.
I need someone new.
I need her to take me back.
I can't go back.
I can't keep living like this.
I can't control it.
I can't understand why it was me.
Why did I try?
Why did I love so hard?
Why do I deserve this?
Why is it over?

I won't let this build up inside of me.
Alex Rubio Dec 2015
I've become so sick
Of being walked on.
I was once told vulnerability
Isn't weakness.
But now I'm trying to figure out
Why am I so weak?
Alex Rubio Feb 2016
No emotion means
No worries.
No problems.  

Where do I sign up?

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