You were both hell and heaven
Fire arose within
Every word you said, every breath taken
was passion
and heat
Like the kind we shared between the sheets.
But there was hurt in your eyes
You couldn’t imagine being a sinner
Every night,
You lay by my side
I told you I was no good.
You told them “there’s nothing I wouldn’t give her.”
For a second I thought I was being saved.
It felt religious believing with you
Courageous game, but we still played.
It was a dangerous world for us fools
Every piece of you was lost in a prayer.
My love for you was The Enemy.
And, my love, He was cruel.
Tears streamed down when I speak,
with my palms together,
I knelt down and repeat;
This man is a soul
I am nothing but a body
Never met a god
This life has been sold,
Never to what I thought.
I’ve lied in bed with what scares me most!
I have sinned, I have sinned!
But please, hear me out, first—
with a benevolent grin
He took me in—
Don’t forgive me, father
I’m a sin.

All I know is that, I never want to one day look back and think, "once upon a time," about you
Because I want you to be my "happily ever after."

She said, I love you, sometimes

I hate when you cry

Never have I met a man

Who wanted so badly to die.

I told her, I don’t know what to do

My earth doesn’t rotate without you. 

Never have I met a woman 

Who I wanted so badly to dig into.

I know she doesn't like me.
I know marriage together is highly unlikely.
But when our stars fall onto the ground
I know with open arms
she's waiting to catch them all
and pop them right into her eyes.
Shimmering me with hope
I'm buzzed with lust
Not everything that falls resembles tears and cries.

I’m missing something,

She said.

A piece of you

The part that wants to be dead


I say,

My dream, it’s all in my head

This is all pretend.

I can’t imagine an even duller life

Without her.

I can’t imagine if she found a better lover.
Secretly wish she’d **** herself with me.

Together we’ll land

SPLAT

from the highest building in the city.

She won’t cry with me

She won’t die with me

She doesn’t love me

Although, sometimes I don’t love her. 

Yet, I can’t imagine if she died.

I can’t imagine if I actually pulled the trigger

Together, while she backs out
at the count of three.

I’d say, the voices told me to do it

I want to be free. 

After all, baby, I always promised you a land

That’s for only you and me.

The loneliness kicks in
I’m back to the start.

I’m still aching, in my poor little heart. 

Remembering her embrace

And how I ruined her always.

Maybe I never deserved her in the first place.
I was more drawn to my sadness

That I couldn’t seem to manage

Her at her worst

And see she, too, is damaged.
I told her,

To me, love’s never been as simple 
as four letters

I can’t even define it
****, not with my life.

Not even if you paid me a million and two cents.


Told her, 

With you, things make more sense

A lot more than in my head.

You can simplify it for me, can’t you baby?

Simplify love for me in bed.

You see, she's never loved anyone before. 

Not her mother nor her father.

When I asked her why, cold

she answered,

Why bother?

She said, I love you, to an extent. 

Just as long as we pretend

I’ll always be with you

Until the very end.

Orange sunsets, burning hues, are you mine?
I lay across your lap, drunk and heavy
filled with sweet pink wine.
Spring is near, our bodies are closer.
Church bells ring; I pray for you.
Baby's got something to show her.
Some kind of summer in his eyes.
I can't shake this feeling
he's telling me lies.
This rainy weather's got me feeling blue.
As winter ends, I'm still thinking of you.
Dear, let's get out of this mess before the seasons change
and so does my mind.
Love letters from across oceans;
I'm sorry for leaving you behind.
But you let me go first.
Over and over again,
Yet, this time's the worst.
If you meet me again,
let it be before the shaky leaves, cold dirt, and hazel vibes.
I can't bear Autumn arriving and falling for You again.

I am the wind that can carry you, but won't let anyone ******* away.

You’d wake up before sunrise
because you said you couldn’t sleep.
Not that you liked watching outside
nor the light creep,
and you certainly were't interested
in watching the earth bloom.
There was nothing magnificent enough out there
nor in the bedroom.
You couldn't speak to me; said it was too early.
"There's no place like home."
"I've got to get out of here."
You swore to yourself you'd be gone
by the end of the year.
So yes, it's my fault, I can't be what you need.
I can't compare to the beauty of what your reality seeks.
Then I guess i'm not meant for you;
I'm not your friend
your addiction
nor as strong as your ****.
The sky was inadequate
without the stars;
nothing compared to the way they gleam.
But you’d say that I’m the one
with no dreams.

Never known what a goodbye was until I was too close to a fire.
Not in the same way I burned your sweater.
That didn't matter,
it didn't make it any better.
But, in a way where I felt the burn and stinging sensation in my eyes
and all I wanted was to pour water into it
to take out the fire.
That must be what it's like; for all those goodbyes.
I felt a familiar spark
like that night, as I left your car in the park.
You told me you couldn't have me in that way.
Those words burned me;
it stung me that I could no longer stay.
Who knew that night would be the last time I saw your face
and the last time you'd see mine.
I have never known what a goodbye was.
After all, you never once gave me the time.
You'd leave and you'd come
as you please.
No goodbyes or welcomes.
No hand waves or begging on your knees.
I have never known what a goodbye was,
so I never did let go.
But now I realize that goodbye
was hidden in everything I know.