I didn't know how to tell him he hasn't been my everything
in a very long time.
That I had found a man
who I can actually call mine.
My own--
The way he's had his own woman on the side.
The truth is, both our places have been replaced on the throne.
He was no longer my king.
I was no longer his anything.
I haven't been his for awhile.
And he hasn't noticed I've been gone.
Nothing could bring me back, not even that dazzling smile.
And he hasn't noticed everything's wrong.
He no longer phones me yearly for an invitation inside the newly aged me.
We have disconnected; no longer "we"
He's let me go; let me go to be.
Has he not realized he has lost me?
To another man whose arms let me in since I've lost my home.
The best I've discovered since being alone.
I still don't know if I should tell him I won't be returning any longer.
Sorry to tell him that another man has made me stronger.
I know he'd understand and he'd be so proud.
I'd like to thank him for what I have found.
He's taught me a valuable lesson in who to become.
I haven't written to him in months,
thinking about him has become numb.
I hope this is the final letter
To wish me to get better.
I'll tell him, my new man, all about the one I carry deep within;
how he was
my soul
my home
my truth
How I could have loved him; I never loved him.
He'll never be the man who's kept me up for so long.
But it's time to move on,
for he's now to whom I belong.
*So, darling, i'll bury you deep.
All mine to keep.
I'll keep you safe.
No one else can take your place.
Light of my life.
Forever I'll stay true.
Don't worry about me.
I'll never forget you.
I've been gone for awhile now; haven't written lately.
The man who I always wrote about, my inspiration, has been replaced.
I've fallen for someone new, someone who's affected me greatly.
So hopefully this is the last serious letter
of the man who I've been writing about for six years
and the beginning of maybe something better.
I'll probably jot down a thing or two, here and there, every now and then
But it's important to note, things are taking a turn
and not everything is about him.