Dear ex crush,
when i see you I still blush.
My heart starts racing.
You're still on my mind.
Just like you never left.
Thank you for making me miserable.
Thank you for making me feel invisible.
Why you're always on my mind?
You're so unforgettable!
I'm falling for you again.

You are my drug...
I'm addicted to you...
I'm starting to lose my mind...
Letting myself be hurted again....

why
       are
            we
                 always
                            





                                falling





                                              for
                                                   the
                                                        ones
                                                                we
                                                                     can't
                                                                             have
                                                                                      ?
                                                                                        ?
                                                                                          ?

I am so miserable
while waiting for your text
I am so miserable
while knowing that you are the one thing I will never have
I am so miserable
you are the only thing I think about
I am so miserably in love with you
are you miserable too

Inhale, exhale, ihnale, exhale
put on a mask!
don't try to be different, if you want to be happy
just be lika everybody
dull
pessimistic
monotone
inhale, exhale, inhale, exhale
don't you dare to be different, if you want to be happy!
different people are dangerous, weird, odd, strange....
inhale, exhale, inhale, exhale, inhale, exhale, inhale, exhale......

How does a heart break
1. You fall in love with a bad guy
2. He is bored so he thinks you are a good distraction
3. Everything seems so perfect
4. He starts telling lies
5. You believe him
6. He tells lies
7. You don't want to believe him, but you believe him, cause you don't want to lose him
8. He doesn't text back
9. You try to convince yourself that he is just busy
10. You find him with another woman
And that's how your heart starts to break..until you find another bad guy.

It is so simple to live in lies.
To believe in happy endings
To believe in love from fairytales my parents used to read to me.
Love against evil. Love always wins.
But do you know that this is one big lie.
Because there is no such thing as love anymore.
Our world is filled with hate.
It is sad, but love doesn't stand a chance.

I turned a new page and I know what it will bring to me:
366 more reasons to love you
366 more reasons to hate you
366 more wars between my mind and my heart
366 more smiles
366 more reasons to smile
366 more reasons to be me

I will smile, I will cry
I will fall and get back on the top
But the most important thing is that I will be happy

And all is left is left from you is right
Next to me...your promise that we are
Going to stay together forever...do you really want to
End what is between us...it maybe feels
Right to you but I hope you know that you are breaking my heart

Maybe I should stop talking to him
He friendzoned me
He clearly told me that he doesn't wanna be anything more than just friends
But maybe there is hope
But maybe I am wrong
Maybe I am annoying him
Maybe he is just too polite to tell me that
But why is he so nice...but yet so mean
I feel sorry for him
I don't even know why
My eyes are filled with tears
My heart is filled with pain
But my mind
My mind is filled with anger
And I wanna make him sorry for his words:
You mean a lot to me, but i would rather see that we just stay friends.

I catch myself thinking about you
A lot
But we are just friends
Aren't we
You probably don't think about me as much as I do
But that's fine
We are just friends
And you probably don't care about me as much as you care for your schoolmate
We are just friends
But why does it hurt when I catch you talk to her
When I see how happy you are when she is near
But we are just friends
Even if I wanna be something more

You are like chocolate
But much better
You are like a drug
But much more addictive
Your eyes are like sea
But much warmer
You are my dream
But not my reality

Why doesn't he text me
Maybe I should text him first
No, a guy must text you first
Maybe I should snap him
But he doesn't snap me back
He is not the right one for me
Why doesn't he text me
I don't like him anymore
Who needs a guy anyway
Oh, look he texted me
He wished me a good morning
I love him so much

Some don't know if your eyes are green or blue
I do
Some do not dream of you
I do
Some do not love you
But I do

I fell for you
I fell hard
And there is no way back
Love is blind

If I was strong enough,
I would ignore you.
But I just can't.
Because love is madness.

Oh don't tell me that true love exists,
cause when I thought I was in love,
all i felt was hate.
If hate is love I am in love with whole world.
But maybe I am.

Face all covered in tears
And your eyes filled with hate
You broke my heart again
But I will let you stay

There is someone else, isn't she?
You are not the person I fell in love with,
you are not the person I thought I knew.
What did all those nice comments mean.
Were they even real?
I have a feeling I have ruined everything.
But what have I done to you,
because you are breaking my heart.
Maybe I am not your type,
but you could tell me when i told you I have feelings for you.
You are making me so confused,
but still i can't get you out of my mind.
Just one smile from you and i will be in love with you again.
Because my heart is already broken.

I wanna be the sun,
I wanna light up the lost people,
I wanna lead them to the happiness,
I wanna take all the pain from them and turn it into love.
Because there is never enough love in this world…
I also wanna be the time,
because I was told that time is the greatest healer.
I wanna heal hearts that love has broken,
I wanna show people that they can be healed.
But when they get healed, they find another heartbreaker.
And all I can do is to wait...wait until their hearts are broken.
Again.
And I wanna be yours.
And I wanna know if you feel same.
But I know you never did.
And you never will.