Its all about the chase.

we are pieces
in our very own game
both burning, yet tending to the flame
we’re so hot, that our hearts will never touch
but we let our hands wander
we let ourselves lust

and you touch me
so softly
and you trace my skin
mindlessly
and I can hear
your heartbeat
and beside you
is where I wanna be

but not too close.

and our legs, are intertwined
lips pressed against necks
your hand
in mine.
pushed close, so fast
like we’re running out of time

no one really talking
but the silence is just what we need
mind over matter
never works for me

I crave exactly this.

and we’re just pieces
in this made up game
and we’re bending the rules
and going insane

staying out late
searching for other people
that curve into us just right
Searching for something that makes playing worth it
and for a moment we get lost in time
and for a moment we feel like more than just pieces
in this game
for a moment we feel alive

Sometimes you have to bite the bullet
Even when it comes from your own revolver
The wars on the inside your behind enemy lines
Because they are your lines

Shipped away into deep thoughts
You can't send letters to family
You're afraid they will know
Of the war of a confused mind

Keep your head down they are firing depression
Put your gas mask on anxiety is coming
Keep down low or you will be taken out
Stay in your trench of a bedroom.

Oncologist said that's illness
And it was evolved and hopeless
Hiding and appearing become skilled
The last o'er time before I killed

As flower in desert
Skinny and pale were sign
Pray and cry were habits
Saw the Lord's house so high

My crown is missing
Because I'm struggling
My dream is missing
Because I'm struggling

Put hand in beating heart
Believing God's bell
Put hand in beating heart
And said " all is well"

Girl, I love those scars
that branch up and down your arms.
Girl, I see those eyes
that stare daggers and stare knives.

I'll get you to feel again
when you see my fake smile.

I'll get you alive again
at least for a little while.

But at the end of the day
once I've had my way,
I'll leave you just like the last
guy from your horrid past.

Because I don't want to insist,
but I don't care for your happiness.
Because you can't forget once you've learned this,
I only want my name bleeding from your wrist.

I only want to be another tally mark
of scar tissue on your thigh.

I only want to leave you in the dark
and listen to you silently cry.

I ****** the bed last night
just like I used to do years ago,
but I didn't bother changing my sheets.

Because I mean, ****,
I'm only sleeping with me.

I fell behind because I was too busy pushing you forward.