Sometimes Ally

Sometimes Ally Aug 2014

10w

I'm in a constant world of self hatred and disgust

#depression #hate #terrible #10w #fml #disgust #selfhatred

Sometimes Ally Aug 2014

I have a secret
One that I've never told anyone
Not my best of best friends
Not my therapist
Not even the girl I'm in love with

It's been eating away at me
It's been tearing me apart
from the inside out for
1 year
6 months
and 1 day

will i ever be able to tell anyone

some secrets are better left alone

#secrets

Sometimes Ally Aug 2014

I can't sleep

a tornado of thoughts
whirling inside me
I'm torn and can't
ever be patched together

people expect recovery
but I only let them down
like always
I always let them down

my tears fall
like rain tonight
and nothing you say
will stop them

if you ask me
'what's wrong'
it'd be easier to say
'everything'

tear me down
to build me back up
and repeat the process

#sad #depression #depressed #why

Sometimes Ally Aug 2014

10w

I'm in the book you always open but never read

#10w #quote #poetic

Sometimes Ally Jul 2014

2:30am thoughts

lately i've found myself
contemplating self harm again
i would give anything just to see
the blood rolling down my thigh
the pain is becoming more and
more unbearable for me
it would hurt you more
than it would hurt me if i did it
you would feel more pain than me
knowing you, you'd blame yourself
but you did all you could for me
im losing myself fast

#cutting #depression #depressed #thoughts #selfharm #trigger

Sometimes Ally Jul 2014

my body, not yours

what I don't understand
about my family is
my body is always
a topic of conversation

my hair is too short
for their liking
they aren't a fan
of my gauges
my sister thinks
i should drop some weight

but I don't care anymore
It's my body, not theirs
I'll express myself the I
deem it necessary

#family #issues #selfexpression